Fifty Shades Of Blu

Alone Blu

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Love You Goodbye by 1D

"Sky-Blu, honey." My mom whispered gently. I got startled and shook myself awake. "What the hell, Mom!" I yelled in a hushed voice. It was still dark out and I'm not in the mood right now to deal with anything or anyone.

"Your language young woman!" She scolded me like I'd never cussed before in front of her. I didn't pay much attention to her. "What do you want?" I whined just wanting my duvet to suffocate me and hide me from the outside world.

My mom started talking, but she was cut off by a familiar voice. A husky, rich beautiful voice I'd become pretty fond of. He sat in the chair across from my bed, staring me down. The moonlight splashed on his delicate face giving me a glimpse.

"Can you leave?" Matthew requested my mother in a rude/polite tone. She just huffed and walked out shutting my door.

"That was disrespectful." I said to him as I sat up. His gray eyes piercing into mine ignoring my comment made to mock him of the words he used with me yesterday.

"First off, she isn't my mother. Second, I didn't come to fight, so you can lose the bitchy attitude." He said and I scoffed at him.

"Are you seriously calling me a bitch!" I asked him and he sighed running his hand along his face. "Blu, shut up for just one second instead of picking a fight with me. I'm all for one if that's what you want, but I'm just tired and I did what you asked. I calmed the fuck down and came to talk to you." He said making me pipe down and come to some sense.

"What do you want?" I huffed, whilst mumbling. "I honestly don't know, I just wanted to see you. I shouldn't have to apologize for shit you started. You should've called me to come get you instead of him. You know he has a crush on you, yet you call him. Anything could've happened." He said making me burn inside.

"I started? First, you fucking flirted with another girl in my face, which I let go! It's all my fault for just trying something new and you being a debby downer, telling me the consequences! I'm not five Matthew. You are not my boss, yet you don't allow me to do anything I want." I said and he shook his head, laughing at me.

"Blu, for the last fucking time I didn't flirt with her. You don't know the half of it. Now I remember why I don't date. I can't deal with anybody's bullshit!" He spoke fuming making my breath catch in my throat. That one stung like hell, I wish I had the might to say something equally as hurtful, but I just want to cry alone.

"Get the fuck out of my room!" I yelled and he got out of the chair and walked out. I groaned and awaited the tears arrival.

I sighed and heaved. There was no coming back. I've never felt this before. I really cared about him.

   Matthew

Hearing her sobs broke me inside, but I was to stubborn to admit it. I will not walk in that room and try to make this right. I had my first girlfriend and lost her in two weeks. I have a wall and it's not fucking coming down. It's just that simple.

I heard her mothers footsteps behind me and I sighed stepping away from her bedroom door. "What did you do to my baby?" She exclaimed and I stepped in front of Blu's door just as her mother was reaching for the knob.

"It's a long story Mrs.Spar-Waters, but just give her some time alone. Don't bother her." I said sounding extremely idiotic. This is her daughter.

"Get out of my house!" She yelled at me. I spoke under my breath. "You don't have to ask me twice." I stepped down each step until I was in my truck and pass the security gates.

I sat in silence until I felt my hands blistering from gripping the steering wheel so tight. Wetness was surfacing on my cheeks, and I didn't realize I was crying until I caught one on my hand.