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Jin - I Will

"Please, you don't have to keep that promise."

I weakly whispered and he squeezed my hand stronger between his fingers.

"No, I gave my word to you. "

Jin shook his head refusing to leave me even after I asked him to do so. He was sitting on the chair pulled closer to my bed than usual, he was sitting there for hours straight. His back should have hurt badly and his eyes were red and tired. I shook my head and slipped my hand out of his palms.

"I told you already. It doesn't matter anymore."

He sighted and looked at the window. The day was getting nearer to the end just like my energy. My life was running away from me with every second, but I couldn't chase it anymore like back in the old days. I didn't have enough power as back then. I had to stop and gain my breath back before I lost if forever. By this point I have already stopped and just accept the reality.

My life will run away and I will have to stay.

"Promises never expires."

He softly spoke and stroke my hair carefully. His warm finger tips brushed my head skin. I know that he felt the cold coming from me, the fact that I was freezing even under tons of sheet's layers spoke louder than any words. I already put up with reality, but Jin seemed to be ignoring facts.

"But people's lives do. They end."

I warned him and coughed couple of times. He glanced at me concerned, but I looked away at the wall. There was nothing to stare at, but I rather glare at nothing than meet his eyes, which I was sure was filled with pain.

"But those, who we love, always live in our hearts. Forever."

I broke down. His words were the exact thing I needed to hear. It was like an assurance that no matter what circumstances under Jin will be, I will live together with him in his heart, and hopefully will help him deal with any kind of problems that attacks him.

"Why don't you write a book?"

I sarcastically suggested sobbing. He sweetly smiled at me and put his palm on my cheek.

"I will."

I wanted to giggle, but my laugh was cut off by a cough right from my throat. I almost choked, but Jin quickly patted me on the back carefully trying not to touch the tubes I was attached to beeping machines with and glanced at me once more concerned even more than before.

"I was being sarcastic."

I admitted to him. But he didn't seem to take my words for granted.

"Don't worry, I love you."

He said and pecked me on the forehead, before I felt blood rush up to my head and machine started beeping like Crazy. I couldn't see, but I was almost sure that Jin stood up to invite the doctor so he could help me. But I was tired. I didn't want this race anymore. I wanted to retire, it was my only wish.

"Jin..."

I begged him, before has able to leave the room and find help.

"Yes, my love?"

I heard hurry in his voice. He whispered to bring help for me as fast as possible. What else could I have asked for?

"I'm tired of running. Please, let me sleep."

We both knew that I won't be sleeping if he won't get help now. But I wanted a long rest. Very long. An eternal one. I knew that even if I woke up, I would be damaged, disable, unable to run. So what's the point?

"Don't say that my love!"

He replied to me sacred and opened the door. I coughed and my head fell on the side, I couldn't even take control over my own body anymore.

"I love you, please understand me."

I said and with last glimpse of energy I reached my hand forward and pulled it with all my power. The tube attached to machine broke and a loud noise filled up the air. Few seconds before lights went off, I could hear Jin run up to me shouting my name and I just sadly smiled to him. If it was in his power he would have got help to me already. But I chose differently. And the last words I heard in this world was "I love you." I couldn't ask for more.

-Jin's P.O.V-

After doctor's rushed in the chamber I was lying on the floor, kneeling in front of her bed. The tube was already unattached by her will and the only thing that I could do was hold her cold hand. She couldn't respond to me, but I didn't let go. Few nurses helped me got up from the floor and lead my way out of the room.

"Sir, we will do everything that's possible..."

They tried to give me that inspirational speech, which I'm sure was heard millions of times by hundreds of different people with various stories. I didn't need that fairytale. There was no miracle. She was the only wonder.

"No need... you can't do anything."

"Sir, I assure you will we will do everything that is possible."

I don't think they understood that it was not depression speaking through my lips. It wasn't, it was just my own sake and her last will.

"You can't, she chose that herself!"

I said to them sadly and threw myself in to the chain standing in the hallway. The nurse came up to and patted on the shoulder without words before coming back to the room.

"Why don't you write a book?"

"I will."

I will, and I promise you my love, I will write that book so people could see and share our story, their story. I shall do that for encouragement of others. I shall keep my word. I love you.

-Months later-

"Excuse me?"

I lifted my head from the newspaper I was reading as sweet female voice called me out. I was sitting in the park on the bench reading a newspaper looking for something that would shook my heart, but ever since she left, nothing affected me like before.

"Yes?"

I asked a young woman, who was curiosuy staring right in to my eyes.

"You're Kim Seok-Jin, right?" I nodded at her and grinned. "Author of "My love"?"

She asked one more question and now smile spread widely on my face. She read it.

"Yes, you read it?"

I asked her now, folding and putting a newspaper down on the bench.

"I did. It inspired me and your story... it touched my heart, I felt like the author have truly lived through the events that he, I mean, you wrote about."

She giggled and opened her bag taking the copy of my own book out. I smiled at the sweet cover on which my one true love was smiling to me and to everyone, who was brave enough to take time and read the story I wrote.

"That's because I wrote from my heart."

I stated and she reached the book forwards with a pen in her other hand.

"Would you mind signing it?"

I shook my head and took the pen. As I opened the book I knew exact words that I will wrote, but there was only one thing still missing.

"What's your name? I don't know who to dedicate this to..."

She smiled sweetly and answered with quote from my book. It impressed me.

"The names are irrelevant when it comes to love. "

"What a great phrase." I smiled back at her and signed the copy closing the book. "You should write a book."

I added and she giggled.

"I will."

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