BTS imagines

NamJoon - After

I was pushing my shopping cart through the shop. It was filled with my grocery purchases with almost no space left for more things to buy. It's all because it was my boyfriend's birthday. I was buying a lot for the party his friends attempted to organize for him, it wasn't a secret or something, so he went with me to pick up things we were still missing. However now, the only single thing, or person, I was missing was him. I looked around, but I couldn't see him anywhere.

As I was continuing on pushing my cart looking all directions except in front of me I felt a slight bump and I was kind of pushed back, at the last second strong arm caught me before falling and I looked up to see my savior's face. It was a man, my age or maybe a bit older, he had a sweet apologetic smile on his face and our shopping carts were pushed together, as turns out that I bumped in to him.

"I'm so sorry, I wasn't looking."

He softly spoke and helped me stand up straight while I brushed off dusts from my coat. I was scolding myself in my mind since I wasn't looking in front of me either.

"No, It's my fault, I'm sorry."

I said to him and looked up from my now clean clothes, and this times I not only got to see his face, but our eyes met and something in my mind clicked. No, calling that feeling clicking would be nonsense, it seemed like the bomb exploded inside me and I couldn't do anything, because there was no 'me' left. That bomb ripped me apart.

"Are you okay?"

The guy carefully asked unaware of what just happened to me. I just stood there with my eyes as wide as never before and my jaw hanging right around the ground.

"Rap Monster..."

I silently whispered, sort of mumbled to myself, but it definitely caught his ear and he raised his eyebrows at me while smiling.

"Huh?"

I wanted to palm my face and run away from that place with a speed of light. I was seriously stupid enough to say that out loud. But on the other hand I wanted to stay here forever and I had million questions on my mind. I couldn't believe that someone blessed me with this miracle.

"Oh? Sorry, I think I mistaken you for someone else."

I added disappointed. The guy, the man really did look like Rap Monster from old days then I couldn't take my headphones off, I was drowning in his and his groups' BTS music.

"Kim Nam-joon."

He suddenly introduced himself and reached his hand forwards offering me to shake it, it took me a second to realize that this move was what all normal people do meeting for the first time. But for me it seemed like some alien signal, since his name just proved my guessing right and I was frozen from all the feels coming to me.

"Huh? Hello."

I was totally stunned and acting like some idiot. My boyfriend was still nowhere to be seen and I'm, grown up woman with a life in her hands, was standing in front of her teenager's years idol like a little overexcited girl, who doesn't know how to act. So I just shook his hand, probably way too hard, and grinned, with my eyes shooting up and down checking him out.

He noticed my stare and chuckled.

"Did I hear you say Rap Monster at first?"

He asked me, but I couldn't hear any concern in his voice. He was amused. Happy even. But I just nodded stunned and held up my hands ready to apologize immediately for mistaking him.

"Yeah, I'm just-"

"You were the fan of BTS?"

He was still throwing questions at me and I just needed to come up with answers, but I couldn't. I forgot what language is and how to use it.

"I couldn't stop listening to your music."

I suddenly confessed and almost fainted at the spot. How stupid you have to be to blurt that out in your idol's face? Well, I was foolish enough to say that to my ultimate bias, to be honest, even after that many years I still didn't have any other favorite k-pop artist, and I could proudly call this person, standing in front of me, my bias. Except that I couldn't believe that it was actually him.

"I'm glad to hear that, it flatters me, but you don't have to do it."

He warned me getting back to his shopping cart and taking it away from mine so I could walk through the shelves in the shop.

"Thank you."

I said to him walking pass him and tears filled up my eyes, but I quickly looked away so he couldn't see the pain.

"No problem, and as I said I'm sorry."

He smiled once more and giggled so sweetly I wanted to jump out the window. How many times I dreamed of meeting him? How many nights I spend watching him dance on my phone screen? How many times I accidentally missed my friend's words for listening to him on my mp3 player? How hard it was hard to forget them and move on realizing that we might have lived on the same planet, but in two different worlds? It was crushing my soul, however now, then I truly met him, I couldn't squeeze the word.

"Not for pulling your cart away."

I said looking back while grabbing on to my own grocery filled shopping cart, which was now kind of blocking the way for other shop's costumers. I took it away from the way and stood in the corner waiting for the float of the people to walk through.

As finally the way was clear once more I saw that Nam-Joon haven't left yet. He was standing on the other side with his purchases grinning at me with question in his eyes. I came closer and nodded at him gulping.

"Did I do something?"

He laughed suddenly watching me struggle with words, but I shook my head declining his words. It was still hard to talk, even if I didn't feel what was so familiar back then, that foolish girly crush on a band members from somewhere very far... My words would still get caught in my throat.

"Thank you for inspiring me."

I finally said to him and he hugged me out of nowhere.

"Without people like you were wouldn't have been BTS, so, thank you."

He whispered in to my ear and let go from his embrace. Tears were in my eyes but they didn't roll down on my cheeks.

"Hey honey?"

My boyfriend showed up from behind one of the shelves and suspiciously scanned Nam-joon with his eyes looking for his intentions towards me, but I just giggled along with the person, who was once the only one in my eyes and couldn't be replaced with anyone else, but now I had my boyfriend and I loved him more than anyone.

"Yes?"

I replied to him finally taking my eyes off of Nam-joon aka Rap Monster.

"Do you have the music track for the party?"

I wanted to lie down on the ground and roll around laughing until someone stops me or kicks me out the shop. Neither of the guys had an idea what was so funny to me.

"Yes, Yes I do." I said to my boyfriend and looked back at Nam-joon, who was still standing there awkwardly, but satisfied about meeting his old fan. "BTS included."

I snorted revealing that to him and I couldn't help, but notice how flames lighted up in his eyes.

"Thank you for being."

Nam-joon waved at me pushing his cart away and I waved back at him while walking away with my boyfriend aside me pushing the cart for me. I happily sighted and lifted my head to the ceiling like a little girl hoping to see the sky filled with stars, falling starts.

"Who was that?"

My significant other asked and I frowned looking back. I wanted to answer him casually, but one thing was for sure, I had no wish to lie for a man I loved.

"My first love."

It was hurtful truth, but I cherished it as a very precious memory.

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