We left and went home after that. We were okay and he was treating me so well despite giving him the opposite earlier. He forgives so easily. Everything's fine with him when it comes to me and I hate it sometimes. I want him to get mad too. To give me cold shoulders when I did him wrong. But Atlas is Atlas. He will always understand and forgive because it's me.
Tulala ako buong byahe habang inaalala pa rin ang mukha niya noong iniwan ko siya sa parking lot at sumakay sa sasakyan ni Nathan. At sa tuwing naalala ko iyon ay napapabuntong-hininga ako upang alisin ang sakit sa dibdib.
"Do you want to eat something? It's been hours since the last time you ate." he spoke when we entered the elevator of the building. He was holding my hand the whole time, kahit noong nagmamaneho siya.
I looked at our reflection on the elevator's door, and I looked away guiltily when I met his gaze.
"Ikaw, baka gutom ka? Hindi ka na nakakain kakahanap sa akin." I said quietly and bowed my head.
I am still so dizzy but I ignored my drunkenness because I don't have the time to entertain my spinning world.
I disrespected my boyfriend, how can I think about my drunk ass?
"How can I think about eating in the middle of searching for you?" he asked and tugged my hand before letting it go so he could snake his arm around my waist.
I felt him kissing my head and sniffing my hair.
"I'm sorry."
Those were the only words I could utter.
"Don't do that again. I won't hesitate to flip every place just to find you." he said, determination was dripping in his voice.
I nodded my head and leaned on his chest as we waited for the elevator to open on the right floor.
"So, do you want something to eat, baby?" he asked softly as we walked to his unit.
"I want to eat." I said, even though I don't have the appetite to eat. But I know that if I tell him that I want to eat something, he would surely eat with me, and that's what I want right now, to feed him.
"Okay. Do you want me to cook?" he asked and bent down, like he usually does, to take my shoes off.
"Ako na." I said and stopped him even before he could bend fully. "Thank you, baby, pero ako na."
Ngumiti ako sa kanya at ngumuso upang humingi ng halik.
"I love you." I said after the kiss. The pain in my chest was still there. It didn't leave even a second.
"I love you even more." he said softly and kissed me again.
I could feel the sides of my eyes getting warm but I sighed it away.
"We can just order, so you won't need to cook." I said because I know that he is exhausted.
Because of me.
"Okay. Is there a specific dish you want?"
Instead of telling him what I wanted, I chose a dish that he would surely love to eat at this hour.
"You're still drunk." he said as he dried my hair with a towel.
I went upstairs to take a shower while waiting for the food he ordered. And now, he is drying my hair and I couldn't help but close my eyes because of the comfort his hands were giving me. The way his hands caressed my head and hair gently with a towel makes me want to sleep with him in bed and cradle him all day .
It's past four in the morning and I'm sure, he too wants to rest now.
"No. I'm just dizzy but I'm no longer drunk. Maybe the cold shower helped me sober up." and everything that has happened tonight.
