When all else fails

Chapter 29

Carter POV
I woke up to an empty space beside me only for me to realize what I did last night. I was instantly flushed with anger. I was mad at myself for letting my anger get the best of me. I know she wouldn't do anything like that to me so I don't know why I just snapped. I guess I wasn't happy anymore I couldn't stand to look at her because everytime I did I always thought of what could've been. I could've been a father with a big happy family. Now I'm not a father and I don't have a spouse. This may sound crazy but I feel no guilt for putting my hands on her. I guess I'm just a crazy bastard just like my 'dad' damn I'm turning into him I need to get my life together. Nova's a good girl and she's mine all mine. I couldn't imagine her ever being with another nigga besides me. I got up and showered. I knew where she was because I'm not stupid who else would she run too. I finished getting dressed and waited outside his house for her to leave. She finally left and I followed her to the grocery store. Why tf is she buying groceries. Is she playing wife to this bum ass nigga who doesn't give a damn about her? I hopped out the car and caught her before she entered the store. I grabbed her arm and spun her around forcefully. When she turned around she looked surprised to see me. I smirked to myself before speaking
"What's wrong Nova why'd you leave? We were just getting on good terms again." I said gripping her arm tighter.
"Last time I checked good terms doesn't include putting your hands on me. Last time I checked good terms didn't include cheating on me. Last time I checked good term-" I cut her off with a blow to the face she was pissing me off. Her ass was to bold maybe it's because we were in public. I grabbed her by her arm and drug her to my car. She screamed and kicked but it was no use. Nobody seemed to be paying attention. I put her in the backseat since she wanted to act like a child, I was going to treat her like a disrespectful kid. I drove us to our house. She must've been crazy if she thought it was going to be that easy to leave me. I pulled up to the house and got her out of the car. When I closed the door she made a run for it. I grabbed her back by her hair and drug her inside the house. I took her to the bedroom and closed the door with my foot. I laid her on the bed before sitting down next to her. I slowly rubbed her thigh so that she would calm down but she only tensed up. She acted as if I was going to hurt her.
"Aye ma calm down." I stated calmly. which only made her break down in tears.
"Please let me go. I'm sorry Carti." When she called me Carti reality struck me. My heart had turned cold. So cold that I was hurting the one person I love. My face softened as I put my head down and just cried. I cried for my baby, I cried for the person I've become, and I cried because I knew I lost her. As I cried I heard her sniffle before coming to me and rubbing my back. I pulled her into my lap as we silently weeped together. After I cried my last tear I knew I had to let her go.
"I'm sorry Nova. I didn't mean any of the things I did. I was just hurt. I'm letting you go because I need to get my life together. I love you with all of my heart and The Lord knows I don't want to let you go, but I have to." I grabbed her face and kissed her like it was my last time. I knew it probably was. I pushed her back on the bed because the kiss got passionate within a matter of seconds. I hovered over her but before I could do anything her phone rang. I sighed and sat down next to her. She answered the phone and started blushing. I knew exactly who it was. I couldn't even be mad, he won fair and square. She jumped up and grabbed her purse before hanging up. She turned to me when she realized she didn't have her car. I sighed before giving her the keys to her Mercedes. She thanked me and before walking out of my house she said these 3 words "I love you." I closed the door knowing I'd never see her again but who would've thought a year later she would come knocking on my door.
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"Aye what's up? What are you doing here?" I said pulling her into a hug.
"I tried so hard Carter. I tried to move on but I couldn't. No matter how many times I played back what you did to me. I couldn't stop loving you. I knew you'd never hurt me on purpose. I know you were just hurt." She said stepping into my house. I sighed of relief knowing she was okay.
"Uh I don't know what you want me to say. I haven't seen you in a year. Of course I'm not over you but I want you to move on."
"Why? I love you and I never will move on. I can't." She said pulling me into a kiss. that quickly led us to the bed. She was on her knees within seconds."
"Uh stop right there nigga that is not how the story went stop lying to my babies. Making them think they mama is a hoe. No sex for you tonight." She said with her hand on her hip.
"See kids stop being so damn nosy all the time now I'm in trouble." I said kissing my teeth.
"They not the reason you're in trouble. Lying is the reason you're in trouble. If I remember you were on my doorstep. And on your knees begging me to come back."
"Man stop lying. You know my story was right it was over 20 years ago but I still remember it like it was yesterday."
"Ewww stop I don't want to hear about mama giving dome that's nasty as hell." My son Drew said.
"You act like you ain't getting it from them little girls." I said. he smiled and dapped me up. "but don't none of them look like your fine ass mama." I said which took the goofy smile off his face.
"Awww thank you baby. I do look good for my age people think I'm your sister Aaliyah. Anyway go to bed so your daddy and I can talk." She waited on them to leave before wrapping her arms around my neck and kissing my collarbone. "Oh that's how you feeling Nova." I said looking down at her.
"Yeah." She said as she took off running up the stairs.
"Mrs. Wright come back here and finish what you started." I said as I ran after her. 42 years old with two beautiful kids. A beautiful wife who I would lose my life and a legal job. My life couldn't be better. I thank god for making me go through so much shit in order to get here. In order to be married to the woman I die for and kids that I'd do the same for. When all else fails and life ain't going how you plan. Just wait because there is light at the end of the tunnel.