Save Me

Chapter 8

"No, but I'm sorry." I said my stomach feeling slightly better. I stared at Matt as I watched the puke drip down his chest and onto the floor. The sight was disgusting, and it smelled just as bad but I couldn't contain my laughter.

"Yeah, haha, so funny." He said rolling his eyes as I continued laughing, I mean I would probably die if this happened with any of the other boys so thank god it was only Matt.

"Hey Matt, you got a little something on your chest." I laughed and he chuckled before falling ontop of me.

"Oh no! Riley you're all smelly and disgusting now too!" He exclaimed and I just laughed as he continued to rub his chest all over me making me let out a shriek as he wrapped his arms around me and laid on his back pulling me onto his chest.

"I don't mind, this is your shirt!" I laughed and he let go of me as I stood up staring at him as he laid on the bed a sad look on his face.

"Dammit, I forgot that was mine." He groaned making me laugh again at his sad face. "Guess I have to go wash it, and you." He ran towards me and scooped me up like a baby my shrieks echoing throughout the room. He walked back over to the bathroom and started the shower, cold water splashing up at me causing me to flinch slightly. He stepped into the shower still holding me as the water gradually warmed up.

"You smell like shit." I laughed as he set me down the water falling onto my head.

"So do you." He laughed and I pulled the shirt over my head and turned around so my back was towards Matt. I held the shirt under the water hoping to get all of the puke off so it could be washed later on and the smell would lessen.

"Okay, I got the shirt mostly clean and I'm all rinsed off so I'll just take a shower tomorrow morning and-" I turned around as Matt stood right in front of me his eyes trained on my body causing me to take a small step back.

"Riley, you are so fucking beautiful." He whispered and I just gave him a wary laugh before I jumped out of the shower wrapping a towel tightly around my body. I walked out of the bathroom and back into the room. I quickly grabbed a random t-shirt off of the ground and pulled it over my head. I closed my eyes and let a few tears run down my face as I realized it was Sam's shirt that I was now wearing.

"Fucking slut." I whispered wiping the tears off of my face as Matt came out of the bathroom.

"Riley, I'm-"

"Leave me alone." I said and then turned around to look at him his eyes staring into mine as he shook his head.

"Riley, listen I-"

"You kidnapped me, Matt, so treat me how you are supposed to." I said walked over to the bed my back facing him. "And besides, I don't want you to get in trouble with Kian for me because I'm not worth it." I heard footsteps and then the door quickly open and close letting me turn back around. I turned around to see that Matt had left as I asked him too, even though I really didn't want to be alone right now. I climbed into the bed and pulled the blankets over my the warm tears rapidly running down my face. I closed my eyes and slowly exhaled trying to calm myself down even though I knew nothing would work.

I was going to die here and the fact that I knew this was happening made me panic and the thoughts wouldn't leave me head. I continued to cry not knowing what was happening or what to do or even think. All I knew was that I wanted to die, I didn't want to have to wait any longer for Kian or one of the other boys to kill me, no I wanted to get it over and done with.

"Stop, Riley, don't think like that." I whispered pulling the blankets over my head and covering my ears as I rocked back and forth slightly. I closed my eyes and continued to rock the tears still running down my face as I continued to think about suicide. "Not the answer, death is never the answer."