Scripted

Part 23

Sorry, I got carried away, again. Tae actually sat me down and made me understand that I don't need to lose my cool about this. People who love us, won't leave us, even if our choices are disappointing to them. He said, if the choices are harmful, then they can. But if it's about love, then they won't. I...just, the amount of hate targeted to him doesn't make sense to me. Have you seen him? The man cannot hurt a fly. You think he is hurting people left, right, and centre to take his own cause forward? Do you even know him? He is an angel. That's what he is. Sometimes I wonder if that's the reason why he looks like that. Like some godly creature. Ethereal. I think I became a fan again when I saw the MVs of Layover. What a man. What a voice. What a face...body...sometimes when I make lo...uhmm hmmm. What I was saying is... wait, what the fuck was I talking about?

Ohh. Right. Standing next to you. I still tend to forget myself when I talk about Tae. It's been three years and nothing really has changed. Before I forget again. STNY is so us. Did you guess that? I left many clues. Okay, I'll give you the biggest hint:

"Screaming, I testify that we'll survive the test of time

They can't deny our love

They can't divide us, we'll survive the test of time

I promise I'll be right here

Standing next to you

Standing in the fire next to you, oh

You know it's deeper than the rain

It's deeper than the pain

When it's deep like DNA

Something they can't take away"

These lines struck a chord with me from the time I heard the song. They led me to choose it for my album. But I hadn't thought about making it the title track. Around the time when I was deciding on my title track, there was a day when he was feeling a little low and I was singing this song to him to cheer him up. Suddenly he said, "this part sounds like us, right Ggukie? We've stood by each other in the line of fire, and nothing has affected our bond. And they've tried, tried so hard to pry us apart but they couldn't. They can't take away our love from us, isn't it?"

That was the moment I decided STNY would be my title track. Now you know why I didn't reveal this on Suchwita. And why they would edit it out, like Tae said. Some of you guessed that we weren't renewing our contracts. You were right. The two of us weren't. This year has been proof enough that we can make it on our own, and as much as we love BTS, the pressure of being associated with the company was taking a toll on me, and by extension, on the love of my life. He is the ultimate unbothered king, yes. But that doesn't mean that he doesn't notice things or doesn't hurt. His support system is strong, but constant attacks take a toll on the best of us.

We miss being on stage together, we really do. We miss all the fun and the struggles we endured as seven. But the cost of that was becoming too much. Our plan was simple. We would finish our individual commitments, spend the rest of the year together, enjoying our time as a couple, before enlisting in 2024. We both had time. That's why our albums are being released in a hurried manner. Don't even get me started on how his album release was handled. He's pulled it off on his own superstardom. Period. He's been telling me that I will have a little more support. But that's because they're betting on me for the international music scene. Anyway. Our plans of spending time as a normal couple (as normal as possible in our kind of lives) were shattered, as you can see. And now I've been told that I have to enlist with Shorty in the same division, per the buddy system, because only then will I be allowed to choose my dates. I was so fucking upset. I wanted to join the special forces too! But no, they have a narrative for this one too. I'm hoping we can break the chains when we come back.