Scripted

Part 23

"Babe, why are you pouting? Wasn't that a good surprise?"

"I have 2100 reasons to pout. Shall I list them for you?"

"Jeongguk-ah!"

"Okay, let me just give you two. Those will be enough"

"I'm all ears! Cannot for the life of me comprehend why my boyfriend is unhappy even after I got us to film official content together"

"You. You acted surprised when I said SNTY has 11 songs"

"You know why"

"I don't wanna know"

"But you do. I was specifically asked not to behave like I am the encyclopaedia on Jeon Jungkook. That was the condition on which they agreed to let me appear on the show"

"Hahahahahah that's a good one. Encyclopaedia. You are though. You know everything about me"

"I do, and they don't like it."

"Hmm... anyway your expression was so exaggerated I bet people won't believe it"

"Then you have no reason to sulk about it"

"Maybe not this one, but the other one is a very potent reason"

"And will you enlighten me?"

"Only if you listen to me VERY VERY carefully"

"Yes sir!"

"I don't have that kink, but... anyway, listen, I'm serious about this. I know you think the world of me and you cannot stop praising me and everything you say comes from a genuine place of love. But, to praise me, you don't need to put yourself down, ok? Please don't do it ever again. I'm glad Suga-hyung knocked some sense into you today. I don't want to hear you self-deprecating EVER again. If you think so highly of me and my music sense, know that I am not a fan of unworthy people. You rank very high up there for me, boyfriend or no boyfriend."

"Uhh"

"No arguments"

"I was just explaining your speed of recording"

"I know. Putting yourself down need not be the way to do it. I don't like it"

"I wasn't aware"

"I'm not saying you do it purposefully, but this is not the first time. And now I need you to be purposefully aware of it and avoid it, ok?"

"Okay Ggukie," Tae mumbles.

"Don't sulk now"

"You know how to get rid of it"

"That I do. Come're"

Later in the day, in Jeongguk's room, a video camera is rolling.

Umm. yeah, I didn't reveal why 'Standing Next to You' was my title track on Suchwita. Tae said it would be edited out anyway, but I refused. If you know me, you know that I like to keep some things private. He knows. The other hyungs also know. But I didn't mention it to the company, and I don't want to share it now. If I did, I doubt the song (and some others) would make it to Golden. When I first played it for Tae, before I played it for anyone else... ah yes, I was asked not to reveal that either. Had to take other names to make it sound like I am close to the others too. Bullshit. I don't have to make anything sound like anything. I am close to them and they know. They're not bothered if Tae is my first priority for everything. The rest of the world though, is. As if it is their life I'm living, and I owe them an explanation. Anyway, Tae keeps saying I should let it go and just do what I want in my free time.

Frankly speaking, not a single other member is worried or bothered about the nature of my relationship with Voo, or his friends, or his dog. Neither is anyone who really loves us. They just want us to be happy. They don't care if we're boyfriends, or fiances, or husbands, or best friends, or co-parenting Bamie and Tannie, or just friends, or brothers. Umm. No. I think they draw the line at brothers. Brothers don't umm, do..anyway. You get the drift. The only people bothered are, the PR team, some idiots in the company, and some bigger idiots in the fandom (I'm sorry for the disrespect. Actually, I'm not. Hah). I have a bone to pick with you guys. Why do you call yourselves fans if you cannot respect my private life? If you spew hate on any of the six people closest to my heart? I don't get you, seriously. You like my music? Support my music dude. Don't bother about advising me on who I should share my bed or sofa or wardrobe with. Hmph.