𝙁𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝘿𝙖𝙩𝙚 || 𝙨𝙤𝙤𝙣𝙝𝙤𝙤𝙣

Chapter 14

A/N:
Finally!!! The new chapter!!!

Deja Vu

JIHOON

The ride back to university was quite, only the humming of the most unbothered person in the world was the only source of noise in this moment. The melody would sound heavenly to me if it wasn't right now when I was irked as hell.

I couldn't even pinpoint what was actually irking me at this point. Was it because this would be the last time I'll be seeing him or was it because of the lie about our first meeting or was it because of what I was getting myself into? Well, considering the circumstances we were in, everything was a lie from the beginning.

But the fact that he had particularly set up that story where we met in a cafe and the barista actually made a mistake by giving my coffee to him and I was practically pissed at him for that until Seungkwan introduced us and all. But why did he lie about it?

'Okay, okay. Technically everything is a lie. I get that, okay?'

"Jihoonie, you okay?"

"H-huh"

I snapped out my thoughts with the most precious nickname (only if it's Soonyoung) that I was given, I couldn't tell what expressions I was making right now except knowing I'm embarrassed as hell and the way he was looking at me so tenderly isn't helping at all.

'Acckk, HELP!!'

"You look pale," his hand reached over my cheeks, slightly brushing his hand over my cold cheek that soon was turning hot as I bit my own lip, trying my best to control my hormones that were going insane as I really don't wanna embarrass myself any further. But I'm sure nothing could beat the embarrassment I had in the studio.

"Y-yeah, I'm good."

'shit! that was too quick'

He chuckled, the sound ringing in my ears like a beautiful melody that I was sure I could make a song out of it.

"You can ask me anything, you know?"

His voice was so soothing that I wanted to melt as his hand still ghosting over my cheek while he tried to look at my face from time to time which wasn't that difficult since there wasn't much vehicle on the road.

"Why did you lie about our first meeting?" I looked down at my lap, fidgeting with my slander fingers. "You know what you said before," I trailed off before looking up into his eyes only to find him a bit confused until he whizzed out laughing, ruffling my hair.

He pulled the car over by a nearby park, leaning against the steering wheel, supporting his plump cheek with the palm of his hand, looking straight at me with a fond look adorning his cute face, making my face flush.

"Y-you didn't answer though," I stuttered, looking away from this hamster who was chuckling at my failed attempt to hide my blush away.

'Oh God! I wanna die!'

"Maybe I just didn't want to lie?" his answer came like a question rather than an answer I was looking for, making me look at him who shrugged his shoulder.

'Okay, I'm getting nothing out of him'

Or maybe it just came to him at that moment. Maybe he was nervous after all. I didn't say anything, just looking ahead for him to start driving but it didn't seem to work. Because it had already been two minutes but this dude hadn't even started the car.

I snapped my neck towards him who was still looking at me just like he did a few minutes ago.

"W-what?"

My voice cracked a little as I tried so hard to keep my compilation. Maybe a bit too hard since I saw him fighting himself not to whizz. He smiled at me as he ran his fingers through his hair, sweeping the locks away from his face, giving me a perfect view of his forehead.

'Oh, God! Thanks for keeping me alive just to see this!'

"You know," he trailed off, taking my hand in his, "you don't look like you're done with the questions." He squeezed my hand softly, encouraging me with a beautiful smile tugging at the corner of his lips.

"You won't mind!"

I guess I couldn't hide away the amazed expression from my face or voice as he chuckled again. I really want to hide myself away, dig my grave and bury myself.

"I'll try my best to answer you if it's not something like top secret," he laughed, drawing small patterns over my hand. My face flushed at his tender touch. I was sure my hand had also turned red in embarrassment.

I looked away as I tried to calm down my beating heart, focusing my vision on the nearest tree to save myself. I sucked in a sharp breath before I shoot my question, not wanting to back away.

"Why did you lie to your friends? They seemed nice to have you just the way you are," I trailed, looking into his eyes, my fists clenching own their own as I swallowed the nervousness, my eyes shut down tightly as I spoke further.

"Is it because you still love your ex and want to get her back?"

I peeked at him with my half closed eyes. He was sitting straight, not laid back as before. I think, I spoke out of my line. Just because he was nice to me doesn't mean he had to answer my question. But I think my guess was right as I saw his hand retreating from mine.

"You don't have to answer," I spoke, quickly as if I was putting my defense on with my hands moving in the air to defend myself as I spoke further. "I was just thinking about it and it came to me," I chuckled awkwardly. "I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have said anything stupid an-"

"No"

My blabbering stopped as I looked at him in wonder what he had meant. I guess he could tell my inner conflicts as he started explaining further.

"You didn't ask something stupid," he took both my hands in his as he creased them gently with his thumbs, looking at me with his cute looking eyes.

"I know my friends love me and they're just concerned about me and I know you are too," he started. His voice is so soothing that I might fall asleep but I couldn't, not when this serious conversation was going on. I focused in his face. I meant lips. Shit! That sounded more vulgar. I meant words.

"My relationship with Riha is kinda complicated which never started nor end. I know it sounds fucked up cause it is fucked up," his voice raised a bit in the end. He squeezed my hands I didn't know what that was for. But he squeezed his eyes shut for a second before he looked back at me.

His breathing was even. Maybe he was trying to control his emotion. But I wish he didn't. I might sound selfish but I wanted to see his pure emotion. I wish one day I would be able to.

'Who am I kidding? Today's the last time I'll see him anyway'

"I'm sorry," he sucked in a sharp breath, closing his eyes which I guess to smoothed out his words before looking back at me with longing eyes. "I wish I'm better with my words," he sighed, giving my hand a firm squeeze as he continued with determination in his eyes, "But I promise it's not what you think. I ain't using you to get back at her or anything."

He looked broken that I wanted to pull him in a tight embrace but I knew I couldn't. It wasn't my place to do so instead I pulled his thumbs in my hands, giving them a firm squeeze which seemed to work as he smiled at me and I just couldn't but smile back at him.

"I ain't. I promise"

the last whisper of him made me froze on my spot as I looked back at his hazel brown eyes which were already looking back at me. I didn't know why but I felt a weird sense of deja vu as if-

'I've heard it before'