Hide And Seek

The Talk

"Enough Studying,You Did Enough
Work At School Today"Lucas Said Dragging Me Out The Room Sitting
Me Down On The Couch Handing Me
A Bowel Of Chips And A Soda Saying We Should Watch A Movie Together.

"Fine,Let's Watch A Movie"I Said
And Casually Ate My Chips Sitting
On The Couch With Him Next To Me"You Okay?,You Been Quite Since You Got Back"Lucas Said"Yeah,I'm Okay I Get Focused During Exam Month"I Said Looking At Him With
A Fake Smile

"Can I Ask You Something?"Lucas
Said While I Was Picking A Movie
Hearing Him Eat His Chips Taking
A Big Sip Of His Soda"Go Ahead"
I Said And Kepted Finding A Movie
To Watch That Was Good.

"Did Anything Happen While You
Were In Foster Care I Need To Know About ?"He Asked"Why?,Who Told
You That ?"I Said And Just Felt Him Looking At Me"You Jump Everytime
I Try To Hold You And You Never Sleep Without The Light On"He Said

"Lucas I'm Only Going To Tell
You Because You Asked Instead
Of Snooping Around"I Said And
Looked At Him"In Foster Care
I Was Abused In Some Homes
Even Starved Flinching Is Just
How My Body Still Reacts When
You Raise Your Hand Or Voice"
I Said Then He Suddenly Hugged
Me.

"Did They Try To Touch You ?"He Asked"No I Told Andy The Same Thing Nothing Happened Like That"I Said And Patted Him Back "Is That What You Mean When You Said You We're Scared Again To Andy Awhile
Back ?"He Said

"I Was Scared To Ask For Help Again
I Hesitated With Darius Because I
Love Him We...We Just Had Our Differences"I Said Putting My Head
On His Shoulder Feeling The Blanket Be Put Over Me.

"Can I Ask You Something Too?"I Asked And Felt Him Nod His Head
Almost Immediately"Anything"
Lucas Said I Moved My Head
Back A Bit Looking At Him

"D-Did You Mean It When You Said You Don't Regret Killing My Parents ?"He
Didn't Say Anything But Slowly Put His Hands On My Face"I Regret That You Were There"He Said I Frowned Hoping That's Not What I Wanted To Hear.

Then Again Not Once Did He
Apologize For It

"So...Your Saying If I Wasn't There
You Still Would Of Done It ?"I
Said Trying To Read His Face.

"....That's Not What I Meant"Lucas Said I Spoke Right Away"What Did
You Mean Then ?That Nothing Would Of Changed Rather If I Was There Or Not"I Said And He Told Me He Wasn't Thinking Straight He Just Lost It

"I Found Out They We're Trying To Send You To Mexico To Live With My Grandparents I Wasn't Just Going To Sit There And Let Them Move You Across The Border"He Said In A
Clear Tone Making Sure I Heard It.

"Yeah,I Know I Wanted To Go"I Said And He Tilted His Head Confused"You Knew?"He Questioned"Mom And-"
I Said But Got Brutally Cut Off"Marcus They Are My Parents They Aren't
Your Real Parents"He Said I Moved Away From Him Trying To Keep
Myself From Yelling At Him

"No They Are Not,When You Stabbed Them You Lost Your Right To My
Parents Being Yours"I Said And Felt
My Heart Start Beating Faster Watching How He Was Reacting.