I'm going crazy.

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Jon (Dean) POV;
Here I was, back in the saddle again! It's been months since I've got to be in an arena and I was lovin' it. I lived for this, so I didn't take too kindly to it bein' taken away. I just had a nice chat with Kofi, a good buddy of mine. But something had been plaguing my mind since we parted ways. I swear I smelled her perfume.. God, it was a wonderful smell. She always smelled like, I dunno how to put it. It was just great. But I hadn't seen her. Truth be told, I wasn't entirely sure I wanted to. She was back with her Johnnyboy and probably happy as can be. Happy.. We used to be happy. I don't know where the hell that all went south from, but hey. I kept walking down the hall until I smelled it again. I looked around, for whatever reason before saying aloud, "What am I doing?" She wasn't even here. She was nursing an injury much like I had been. I tried to put it out of my head, so I could avoid the worrying and temptation to call her up and check on her. I mean, she'd probably just hang up anyway. I shook my head, the dry curls bouncing a bit when I heard a familiar voice. It snapped me from my thoughts, and I grinned. "Well look who the hell decided to show up." I had been looking for him, honestly. He was the only one who could keep me sane in this moment. Lord knows, I'm going crazy. "Jeez, Joe. You make it seem like I took some sort of happy vacation." I laughed, and he did too. Joe and I remained close while that weasel Colby was nothing more than a faded memory. I had more of a reason to hate him than just what happened storyline wise, but not many here knew of it. I planned on keeping it that way. After all, it's my business and no one else's. "How're you feeling, man?" He asked. I took it as a physically based question, avoiding the obvious hint at the emotional. Who needs that junk anyways? "Doin' great, man. Back and better than ever! Not to mention ready to kick some ass!" It was true, but he just shook his head. "Great, great. I knew you'd feel that way. Now, how're you feeling about Nikki?" Eyelids forced themselves shut. Dammit. Here I thought I'd skillfully escaped the subject, and boom! Shut down. Eyes reopened and focused back on the long haired Samoan I called my best friend. "Just peachy, Joe. Absolutely peachy. We done now?" I grew irritable on this topic, because let's face it, sharing feelings isn't my strong suit. He just looked at me as if I had two heads sprouting from my shoulders. "Right. Wanna work on the act, and try again later?" Joe knew me better than anyone. Anyone, with the exception of Nicole. But since she wasn't exactly in my life at this time.. He held the top spot. "Do we really need to talk about this now?" You could hear the level of irritation in my tone. I didn't want John to hear us by some stupid circumstance and have it cause her any trouble. Lord knows it wouldn't be the first time he freaked out on her. "You know she's here, right?" I froze as Joe finished his phrase. I forgot she was scheduled to return tonight.. Shit. What if she heard us.. I didn't want her to yell at me, or even have the first time we saw each other in months be over some negative bullshit. But then the lightbulb went off and I realized what had happened. "I had a feeling.." I mumbled. It all made sense. I really did smell her perfume. But why was she close to me.. Was she.. looking for me? No, she couldn't be. She's with John. But what if..

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