LEV PETROV (Wild Men Series #3) Book 2

Chapter 16

BREE

I'M a healthy man. With healthier needs.

Is he going to have a mistress?

Of course, what do you expect? He's a mob boss and having a mistress is as normal as breathing air.

Hindi ko napigilan ang mapahikbi sa kaisipang iyon. Nadakot ko ang nagsisikip na dibdib. I swayed, pero mabilis kong nahagip ang seradura't itinukod ang kamay. Doon umamot ng lakas.

Shit. Why does it hurt like a bitch?

I blinked and a tear escaped my right eye. Parang pinipiga ang puso ko sa kaisipang iyon. I can't think. Move or breathe. Namalayan ko na lang, nakasalampak na ako sa sahig. My forehead is touching my knees, I'm rocking back and forth.

I'm fucking crying.

Why are you crying? You should be happy.

"N-no..."

You keep on pushing him away. Keep on telling him how you loathe him.

"S-stop!"

Now you get what you want, Bree. Lev's fed up with your drama.

He's gonna have a mistress. Number two. One who's sane enough to let him touch her. Give him his needs.

One who's not broken beyond repair. Unlike you.

"Fuck."

Mapait akong natawa. Marahas na pinalis ang pesteng luha sa pisngi ko. I don't care kung mabura ang makeup na dalawang oras pinaghirapan ng makeup artist na kinuha ni Lev for this night. I don't even care kung masira ko ang milyones na gown na kinaaasaran n'ya kanina.

All I know is that everything feels wrong now. It shouldn't be. But it is. I'm at a crossroads between fighting him and running towards his arms.

I'm in the worst predicament. I'm freaking guilty.

Hindi dapat.

I made peace long time ago with the fact that Lev should be punished. I have all the right reasons to do so. Then why am I having second thoughts? Bakit pangalawang kamatayan ang hatid ng kaisipang may ibang babaeng hahawakan o hahalikan si Lev?

It seemed that the pain and suffering from two years ago was a child's play compared to now.

Cause the one I'm in is insufferable. It's the kind of pain that cannot be healed by some medicine or healing shits from therapy. One I know that I can't get over with.

Inumpog ko ang ulo sa dingding. Ngunit kahit anong gawin ko, hindi noon maibsan ang pait na lumulukob sa buong pagkatao ko. Tuluyan na kong napahagulgol.

I know anyone sane enough will tell me it's all my fault. But for any of you to judge me, you must understand what transpired a few minutes ago.

How shit turned into this tragic clusterfuck...

"Bree! Oh, my God! You're here."

Bago pa ako nakahuma, nasa loob na ako ng isang mainit na katawan. I stiffened and blinked. A familiar scent of rose and citrus attacked my nose. The knot on my tummy started to loosen, my shoulders started to relax.

Two days before the party, I decided to visit the boutique for the final fitting of my gown. My monster husband said yes. Sinamantala kong good mood si Lev, I told him I need a new pair of shoes na wala sa isla. Lo and behold, pinayagan ako ng animal na magtungo sa BGC kasama ang lima niyang tauhan.

Beggars can't be choosers. I grabbed the opportunity and wrote a text to Karen. Now, here we are. Sa loob ng malaking fitting room ng exclusive boutique, magakayakap.