LEV PETROV (Wild Men Series #3) Book 2

Chapter 13

BREE

HE slept beside me.

Again.

Those are the words that keeps on repeating inside my head simula pa kaninang magising ako't maramdaman ang buong bigat ng katawan ni Lev sa tabi ko. That was thirty minutes ago. Now, my kidneys were starting to scream along with my numb hips, urging me to move. But the rest of my body didn't get the memo.

Why can't I find the courage to shove his legs and shout at his face? Call him names?

Dahil duwag ka?

Because you like his warmth and miss his embrace?

Fuck you, self.

Inwardly, I groaned and cursed myself. Isa lang ang sagot ko parati sa tanong na iyon–I don't want Lev to feel victorious about this whole shit. Cause this monster will rub it to my face, that's a fact. Hindi man niya lantarang sabihin sa akin, kita ko iyon sa mga kislap at init ng tingin na ipinupukol niya sa akin.

I gritted my teeth.

Pang ilang beses na nga ba nangyari 'to? Ten? Or, this is the twelfth time? Honestly, after the fourth time I lost count.

Napagod na ako.

Ang hirap kalaban ng asawa ko. The how and why is not important to him. Dahil para sa siraulo iisa lang ang end goal niya. Ang madala niya ako sa kama, every single damn night.

Our routine was composed of–me stubbornly sleeping on the couch, floor, or even inside his gigantic luxurious bathroom. Him carrying me. The next morning, I'm cocooned on Lev's muscular arms.

And I'm hugging him back. Every. Freaking. Time.

I loathe Lev for that. For reminding me how powerless I am to his charms. Gising man o tulog.

You might ask. Did I resist? Of course. Or at least, I tried.

Nang unang beses mangyari ito, gising na gising ako. Ramdam ko nang pangkuin ako ni Lev at dalhin sa loob ng kuwarto niya. The protest burned into my tongue and I was about to spit it to his face when I heard him groan and muttered a series of profanities. The vengeful side of me emerged and reveled the pain I was indirectly inflicting on him.  So, against my better judgment, nanahimik ako. I let my husband carry me, tucked me in bed, and touched me. And boy Lev's hands wandered deliciously setting my body on fire.

The worst part is that patay-malisya kaming dalawa kinabukasan. Hanggang sa lumaon, naging normal na sa amin 'to. May piping boses sa loob ko na nagsasabing nilo-look forward ko na ang pagsapit ng gabi upang kinabukasan mas lalo ko pang kamuhian si Lev.

Neknek mo. Dami mong hanash. Pride 'yan, Bree.

Shut the fuck up!

Aminin mo na kasi, nag e-enjoy ka sa moments n'yo. Unti-unti nang nauupos ang defenses mo against Tanders. Ipokrita.

Nooo!!!

I gave myself an imaginary slap and bury that impertinent bitch back where she belongs–in the deep recess of my mind.

I clenched and unclenched my jaw. Pinakiramdaman ang katabi. Nang masigurong tulog pa rin si Lev, saka ko pinakawalan ang kanina pa pinipigil na hininga.

Slowly and quietly, I inhale.

Exhale. Inhal–fudge!

Biglang kumislot ang animal. Humigpit ang brasong nakayakap sa bewang ko't hinapit pang lalo ang katawan ko palapit sa kanya. Hindi pa nakuntento, isiniksik pa ang ulo sa leeg ko sabay ungol.