I sit down on my bed and open to the next clean page, taking a deep breath and blinking for a long second. I was not going to be mad. Being mad is wasting my time.
My precious time in this life.
****
November 20th 4:15 pm
Everyone's acting so FUCKING WEIRD.
WHEN WILL I CATCH A BREAK?
okay calm down seungmin...
Everything's just moving really quickly
Don't even get me started on my best friends love lives- or previous love life situation-
Chan has been continuously texting me and I don't have the guts to block his number. I just leave him on read and swallow the guilt. I know I shouldn't feel remorse for him but some part of me feels like I led him on.
I didn't lead him on right?
He's the one who called gay people weird? I should not be even thinking about this man no longer.
But he was always so sweet when we talked-
NO
I don't feel it with him. I know there should be a spark, and it's not there. I don't like him and I know it.
On top of this whole- thing- Hyunjin has been acting strange too.
Like maybe this is his plan to get back at me for getting him in detention and making him think Yuri liked him? Well that was also his fault but maybe his weird behaviors part of a prank?
Like there's no way Hwang Hyunjin just fucking caught me instead of letting me fall. No way he tried to help me when my nose was bleeding instead of just walking off, or looked actually concerned when I almost fainted. No way right?
I'm hallucinating right?
He wants to make me think he's all nice so he can pull a big prank on me. Yeah that's it.
That's the typical Hyunjin behavior.
But that text.
The text message.
Hyunjin rarely ever texted me. It was clear we only talked when it was necessary if if he was teasing me.
What possessed Hyunjin to ask me how my nose was? Into actually caring?
And what jisung said doesn't make it any better. The only boy I would like would be hyunjin?
Pfff.. Me and Hyunjin?
Let me repeat it one more time- Me... and Hyunjin?
Like what the fuck did jisung smoke? There's no way he was saying that unironically. I practically exist for Hyunjin to hate.
Hyunjin wants me to think he cares... yeah. He's just trying to play with me to get a laugh out of it.
UGH IM JUST SO PISSED.
Wonpil comes home from college from America and I barely get to talk to him before he goes off with Hyunjin! Does that bastard have to take everything good from me?
Even my own brother?
God dammit I really need to get some anger management skills.
****
*Ding dong*
"Seungmin could you get it?"
I bite my tongue and don't say a word. My eyes were locked with the japchae infront of me and my hand fidgeting with the chopsticks.
The vibes were up for everyone at the table... well except me. Hyunjins parents had joined our family for another dinner and everyone was overjoyed to see Wonpil.
I mean our parents were best friends so they joked around alot. As much as I love to see them happy, I was indeed not in the mood to have a little giggle gaggle.
My mom looks at me with stern eyes when I don't respond, knowing we had guests over. I mean they were basically family, I didn't have to be kind to them like guests. "Seungmin I said-"
"I'll get it auntie!" Hyunjin quickly cuts the women off, a small smile on his lips. I hesitantly look up to see the boy getting up from his seat and rushing toward the door.
A pang of guilt hits me from yelling at the older earlier, he didn't really do anything wrong. He's been nice...
My mom shakes her head with a smile, "What a kind boy huh?" She laughs with Hyunjins parents. Even Wonpil chuckles a bit from my side while I try to keep my head down.
I hear the sound of the door opening and a familiar voice follow. My ears perk up and suddenly my slouched posture straightens.
Why was that voice so familiar? I open my ears further to hear more.
And my suspicions were confirmed when Hyunjins confused voice utters a, "Chan hyung?"
A/n
ITS CHAN AT THE DOOR
OOOHHH WTFS GONNA HAPPEN NEXTTTTT
too bad I know and yall don't
Hheehhe hope you enjoyed!
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