𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐉𝐄𝐂𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐊𝐀𝐈 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒 ⊹

𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬.- 𝙖𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙤𝙣𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

for any of you who are even wondering, I am perfectly fine for once— I was listening to kyu- kurarin,,

I'm going to list all the references I used at some point —

✉︎✉︎✉︎✉︎✉︎✉︎

𝐭𝐰:: angst, reader passes away in a peaceful way.

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Bouquet of sunflowers by Claude Monet.

 ❝ 𝘚𝘢𝘺, 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴

𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘶𝘱

𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘹𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘭𝘺... 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 .ᐣ ❞

- Kyu-kurarin by Iyowa.

𝘋𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘢𝘳𝘺,

I am at the hospital again. I can't even walk anymore. 

I hate this.  

I don't even know what to do anymore. Why am I the one who has to suffer? I wonder why.

Akito has been visiting me very often after school. He does his homework next to me while keeping me company. I have to admit that I like him quite a bit.

Sometimes I help him with his homework when he doesn't know the answer. I used to be able to write, but my hands aren't strong enough now.

I don't want to die, but I don't want to live.

" If you don't want to die, then live,"

I keep saying that to myself.

𝙆𝙣𝙤𝙘𝙠*

" Come in," I said as I closed my diary.

" How are you feeling?" He said, grasping my hand.

" I don't know if I can survive this whole month," I mumbled clear enough for Akito to understand.