His Name Was Noah

Grief

Shall I wither and fall like an autumn leaf,

 From this deep sorrow - from this painful grief?

 How can I go on or find a way to be strong?

Will I ever again enjoy life's sweet song?

Sometimes a warm memory sheds light in the dark

 And eases the pain like the song of a Meadow Lark.

Then it flits away on silent wings and I'm alone;

 Hungering for more of the light it had shone.

Shall grief's bitter cold sadness consume me,

Like a winter storm on the vast angry sea?

How can I fill the void and deep desperate need

To replant my heart with hope's lovely seed?

Then I look at a photo of your playful smiling face

And for a moment I escape to a serene happy place;

Remembering the laughter and all you would do,

Cherishing the honest, caring, loving spirit of you.

Shall spring's cheerful flowers bring life anew

And allow me to forget the agony of missing you?

Will spring's burst of new life bring fresh hope

And teach my grieving soul how to cope?

Sometimes I'll read a treasured card you had given me

And each word's special meaning makes me see,

 The precious gift of love I was fortunate to receive,

And I realize you'd never want to see me grieve.

Shall summer's warm brilliant sun bring new light,

And free my anguished mind of its terrible plight?

Will its gentle breezes chase grief's dark clouds away,

 And show me a clear path towards a better day?

When I visit the grave where you lie in eternal peace,

I know that death and heaven brought you release;

 I try to envision your joy on that shore across the sea,

 And, until I join you, that'll have to be enough for me.

For all the remaining seasons of my life on earth,

There'll be days I'll miss your merriment and mirth,

And sometimes I'll sadly long for all the yesterdays;

 Missing our chats and your gentle understanding ways.

Yet, the lessons of kindness and love you taught me,

And the good things in life you've helped me to see;

Linger as lasting gifts that comfort and will sustain,

 Until I journey to that peaceful shore and see you again.

I read that out loud to Noah. "That was beautiful, Bella." "It's just something I found online." "How'd you guys like it?" Noah asked his YouNow fans. They liked it I guess. "Well since it's Bella Appreciation Week, Bella do you wanna sing anything?" I nod my head and whisper the song in Noah's ear. I hold the cross necklace in my hand and look up at the sky.

Sha la la la la

Sha la la la la

You used to call me your angel

 Said I was sent straight down from heaven

 You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

 You're still here somehow

 My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you, sha la la la la

 I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer

And now I'm living out my dream

Oh how I wish you could see

Everything that's happening for me

 I'm thinking back on the past

 It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

  My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you, sha la la la la

I miss you

I know you're in a better place, yeah

But I wish that I could see your face, oh

 I know you're where you need to be

Even though it's not here with me

I miss you

 I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to knowI miss you, sha la la la la

  I miss you

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you, sha la la la la

I miss you

I finished the song and Noah set his guitar down. "Well guys, keep trending #BellaAppreciationWeek all through next Wednesday. I love ya'll and I'm sure Bella feels the same. Noah is out."

"You didn't have to do that Noah." I say to him. He just shh'd me with his finger against my lips. I looked down at his finger then back at him. He could easily tell I was still broken. It's only been a day since I fought with my mom and a day since my aunt's funeral. He pulled me into his arms while I sat my head on his shoulder and softly cried. "I know baby. It's okay to cry. She loves you and God has a great plan for her." "Thank you Noah." "Anytime baby girl." We were whispering to each other in his front yard. After I calmed down, I looked at Noah, who was staring up at the sky, and kissed his cheek. I didn't show that much affection today. It's the grief overwhelming me.