Purée

Mis-match

"what happened this morning in the room?" mattheo asked "emotions.." I replied "show me.." I turned around facing him "you have seen them not healed in a short"-"don't care show me" I asked he rolls his eyes "how many of those did you have?" he asked walking over "just this one today quit stalling" I asked which he rolls his eyes lifting his shirt "placing cream on it like I told you to?" I asked he takes my cigarette walking to the edge so a no "your only here because of the injury your gone the second it's healed" he explains "keeping you all safe yes I promised my dad" I turned around crossing my arms "just so you don't have a bond with anyone" he laughs hurt "being with someone that has the chance to hurt me"-"that's what you think I'll do?..break something that can't be broken?..your words your being here is healing it right?" he turned to me "mattheo"-"answer me!" he asked "k-kinda I think? am doing something with my life yes but am ruining this friendship" i explained "friendship?" he asked I stepped forward he steps back "no"-"mattheo please listen" I asked "Venessa?" Jordan asked "your needed else were" he said I grabbed his wrist and appeared to my room "what are you doing?" he asked "Jordan only wants the lighter I stole from him, am not leaving this conversation till it's sorted" I explained "you want to stay friends with everyone nothing more because that will count for 'emotions' ever tried saying fuck that and do the opposite?" he asked taking the lighter off me I stepped back bumping into my draws which I looked over then back at him "you want me to Ra"-"no not..kinda-at random shut up woman"he asked his lips carelessly touch mine his hand on my neck another on my wrist pulling me closer to him the words 'fuck that and do the opposite' repeating in the back of my head but the downsides dragging me and I pulled away from him "Venessa" he asked softly and worried "am trying okay but the questions of how will this play out? who will get hurt in the end? how will others react? am I gonna stay in my bed forever? who's gonna be there to help me? the promise to my dad? oh I fucked mattheo and I was selfish to not have to have it together and think about me" I pace the room with questions similar flooding my mind "Venessa..." he asked "what!" I looked up at him he points at the door with literally everyone there staring confused "great" I covered my face sighing "what the fuck?" Jordan asked confused your telling me that? "you haven't told her the quote 'fuck that and do the opposite' what kind of brother are you?" mattheo asked him I uncovered my face looking at him confused you gotta be kiddin me please say he's joking "that's not what that means you dick" Jordan said "what's going on?" he asked "your asking me? tell that to that idiot" I point at mattheo "I think I understand...so you two basically talked about feelings you was saying your questions that was swarming your head then we walked in to you both kissing" pansy explains "uhh" I shrug lost "yes" mattheo butts in "so your basically at square one..again" pansy said to me what situationship? ohhhh "fuck" I pout knowing nobody can help the situation only making it worse "did warn you did you listen?.no" she walked over holding her hand out which I took she helped me up "party in common room tonight!" pansy said as she's leading me out "tell me everything" she asked "Iv messed up I know!" I stopped infront of her "so how are you gonna get out?" she asked "I don't know" I said looking behind she looks over then back at me "obviously talking to him didn't work on your behalf so restart..as it's the only option at the minute" she adds "hi am"-"not that far nice try" she smiled I groan "break not now let you both breathe and you must be hungry I know I am" she grabs my arm hooking and linking both of ours walking to the big hall "can I just disappear?" I asked "no because your repeating what just happened where the fuck has your brain gone?" she asked I shrug "foggy since I came back couldn't handle the mess I got into so must have ran off" i explained "what?" Jordan asked "she lost her brain you ain't taking her she's warm" pansy explains "wasn't going to but what's going on between you two now?" Jordan asked "gonna restart like it never happened" i explained "could of said that with a bit of joy" she asked "woo am exited" I said sarcastically "now your taking the piss after you've eaten talk to him" she asked "hi am Venessa snape you are?" I asked "not that literally!" she replied I rolled my eyes "what else do you want me to say hi am stalking you?" I asked her confused "my god..shut up" she asked gladly