B.R.O.K.E.N. (a Princeton&Diggy Love Story)

The Truth

Am official an orphan..

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I stared at the spot that always held my bracelet. I always kept it on, through showers, the season, and years. I had it since I was 7, the first time I moved in with ma, after my mother’s death. My arm was purple as I stared at the spot. How can you lose your Life and the people you cared about the most in one month? The school hated me, I was a whore to the internet, I was a laughing stock and embarrassment to everyone and I lost Jacob, I even was missing diggy. He was Like my best friend, But everything comes back. The Bet.. they had a bet on who could get me in bed first, what type of pyschos do that to someone you supposedly loved. Right now. I was torn.. I knew the only person I needed to talk to was diggy… and Jacob. Dammit! I couldn't even decide.  At that instant my phone started to ring, as it interrupted my long thinking. I look away from the window as I grabbed my phone, Ariella glanced at who it was and shook her head. If she only knew I looked down, and nearly fell apart. Diggy.

"Daniel," I said softly into the phone

"are you ok?" he replied 

 "why do you care, I thought I was just a Bett. Ya’ Know, I thought I was getting my feelings back from you.. I was wrong. You and Jacob are doGs- -"

 "Look, am sorry. Honestly, I just couldn’t stomach the thought of you being with him. I still love you"

 Bullshit,   "no. you loved the fact, that you could win Jacob over ME! I was there for you, when you tried to make a record label when your dad hated the fact you tried going into the business alone, I was STILL there when you where on the scream tour f-cking probably them 3 Hightlighters and still messing with Bree! I was there, when you broke my heart. You’re the reason I couldn’t trust Jacob in the first place, so don’t come back with that old shit! You don’t love me, BUT I LOVED YOU. that was the past HINT LOVED is past tense, you whore! !" 

I screamed into the phone as I hung up throwing down my iphone.At that point I didnt care if the screen was shattered or cracked. I had bigger problems. I put my head into my knees, Why was this hard…. I remembered when people said you can never get over your first love. It was all true, I couldn’t get over diggy. He was my first everything, My first kiss, first Love, my first-time. I met his parents and his over crowding siblings. He loved showing me off, He was my best friend. It didn’t even feel like a relationship but I guess that was a problem, since he did cheat on me.. But then Jacob came into my life. I was torn then but he’s all I could think about, I stopped thinking about Diggy and no other person did that but jacob. My head was swirling with emotions, I now had a headache from crying.  I looked down at my phone which was vibrating like crazy. I looked up at ariella who was finally pulling into the Drive Way, she turned to me and gave me a disgusted look, then shook her head. It all looked like pity.

" what ?" I asked her, she could always be complicated 

 "am sorry about mason" she said but I knew she wasn't just sorry about mason. 

I shrugged my shoulders as I walked out the car, I showed no emotions but right now I was torn. I felt Broken. But I didn’t need her self-pity. I need to get to the school game, It was now 4 and it started at 8. This was the finals, this was my last chance to win everyone over.

" why do you do that?" she screamed, I looked at her like she was crazy 

" what ?!"

" you push everyone away, that boy loves you." 

" stfu! Ok, ariella you don’t know what your talking about…" 

" you just proved my point! You act like you don’t care but you do.  You try to hide your pain, and you blame those boys that love you, making everyone around you miserable. YOU HAVE TWO CELEBRTIES ANYONE WOULD BE LUCKY OR EVEN KILL JUST FOR THOSE BOYS ATTENTION AND YOU- -YOU TAKE IT FOR GRANT IT. I AINT LIKE THEM OTHER TRICKS CHYNA, AM NOT SCARIED OF YOU! WERE FAMILY, SO AM GON’ BREAK THIS SH!T DOWN EASY- AND SIMPLE. YOU PROMISED AND PRAYED THE TOTURE BREE’ PUT YOU THROUGH, WOULD STOP AND YOU PROMISED YOU WOULDN’T HURT and BULLY PEOPLE LIKE SHE DID, , BUT – YOU – YOU CHANGED for the  WORST, YOUR NOT THE CHYNA, I GREW UP WITH 

I got sick and tired of everyone going off on, so i cut her off. I knew exactly what she was going to say next, that my parents would have been ashamed. 

" your DAMN RIGHT! SHE GREW UP WITH A FAMILY, AND SHE HAD PEOPLE THAT CARED ABOUT HER, YOU THINK I WANT THEM FIGHTING OVER ME , HUH?"

" F-CK THAT ! YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY YOUR EVEN ALIVE, AND I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU, BUT YOUR TWO-TIMING THEM TWO BOYS, PRINCETON AND DIGGY. DANIEL AND JACOB! YOU MAKE ME SICK CHYNA! AND YOU WONDER WHY NOBODY GIVES TWO FLYING FUCKS ABOUT YOU, its because you sure as hell don’t give a f-ck about them. You KEPT PUSHING PEOPLE AWAY AND LOOK WHERE IT GOT YOU, YEA ITS NOT YOUR FAULT ABOUT THOSE PICTURES BUT YOUR LETTING THAT DAMN SH!T GET TO YOU! AND YOU THINK EVERYONE IS GONNA FORGET ABOUT THIS CHYNA, HUH? I CAN READ YOU LIKE A BOOK. AND YOU TRYANN GET BACK ON EVERYONES GOOD SIDE BY WINNING THAT GAME BUT everyone’s feed up and so  am I . NEVER REGRET LOVING ANYONE. Ever.

I stood there. And she was right, she told me the truth. But it hurt, even ariella hates me. Why am I so terrible, I stared at her as my face screamed in pain. But, how could she be so hurtful. I walked past her, and ran to my room.  I closed the door and leaning agasint the door falling to my knees as I felt guilt pull me down. Leaning on the doorway, I let the sobs finally escape. After a while  I wiped my tears  away slowly as I crawled towards my Laptop. I had to know, what was going on… But I felt my other half Telling me to stop, that it was a bad idea. But I just had to, I logged on Tumbler and Twitter/ Thinking that the interaction would light me up. I was wrong.. I wiped my face as I logged on to Instragram. My phone was vibrating in my hand. I looked down and remember my basketball game… I sat up quickly as I grabbed my bag and started to change into my Jerseys and Jordans. I finally sat back down, and scrolled down my timeline. I gained about 4,OOO new followers. Scrolling down my list were Princeton’s fanbase or as we all know them as Team Mindless.