I Let Myself Want You

41 ● Yohan ● 10.06.2023

June 10th, 2023

Yohan, New York

Since I'm the chief, I was called into a board meeting this morning, because apparently, something serious was happening. Turns out that a few nurses from the hospital filed reports about sexual harassment. And it's not like it was anything new, things like that happened sometimes, and I knew damn well that it happened from time to time. When I was working at Langone, our department got sued at least once in a month, because I always worked with creeps for some reason.

This time, it was a bit different, because it kind of concerned me directly. Well, maybe not me, but someone I knew and loved. Someone filed a suit against Jesper. And surprise, surprise, that someone was Scott.

When I heard about it during the board meeting, I literally wanted to run out of the room and go kill that bastard. How could he do that to Jesper? From what I knew, they weren't exactly together, but they were kind of seeing each other for some time and Jesper said that they were having sex a lot. I wasn't exactly okay with that, but I was trying to deal with it. Most of all, I knew that Jesper wasn't fucking harassing him, the guy wanted to do it with him, it's not like Jesper took advantage of him.

And well, considering the fact that Jesper himself was the victim of sexual abuse once, I just couldn't fucking believe that someone would accuse him of something like that. I guess he didn't have the chance to tell Scott about Jay, but still. How the hell could Scott do that to him? Why would he even do that? What can he even gain because of it? It's not like Jesper is going to be fired because of it.

And since I was the chief and I was the person who was responsible for the doctors and the surgical nurses, I had to take care of it, and I had to start by telling Jesper about the fact that someone filed a suit against him. And fuck, I didn't want to be the one to tell him, because I could already see how fucking disappointed he's going to be when he finds out that the guy he actually kind of liked accused him of sexually harassing him, fucking hell.

I was actually on my way to the cardiac ward when I bumped into Malcolm, who was apparently going the same way. "Are you perhaps going to talk to Jesper about the tumor?" He asked right away.

"No," I answered with frustration. "I have to tell him that some shithead filed a sexual harassment suit against him," I explained, and just as we entered the cardiac wing I asked the nurse at the reception about Jesper and she said that he was in surgery right now, so we both headed to the OR floor.

"What?! Who?" Malcolm asked, clearly shocked.

"Jesper was seeing some nurse before we got together and I guess the guy felt kind of hurt that Jesper stopped calling him," I said. "I was at a board meeting ten minutes ago and apparently there's a lot of shit going on with the nurses, but I never would have expected someone to file a suit against Jesper, he's going to break when he hears it."

"He can just talk to the guy and explain himself though, right? It's not like he actually used him, right?" Malcolm spoke, looking at me curiously.

I wondered if I should tell Malcolm about Jesper's past, but then again, I don't think there was anything to hide, especially now, when someone was attacking Jesper. "He has some history with sexual abuse," I started, quieting down a little, so that no one else would hear us while we were on our way to the OR. "His boyfriend from Baltimore abused him, it lasted quite a while. And he raped him," I explained eventually, wanting to keep the story short.