Romanoff's girl

New life vol. 17

*Nat's POV*

After a short flight we arrive at the Moscow airport and head to the baggage claim to get our things. We have a 7hour layover till our final flight to Heathrow which gives us just enough time to help Melina get settled and say goodbye.
"How far is the house?" I ask my sister while signing a paper to rent a bike and a car for us.
"Eeuh about 40minutes"she replies, her tone throwing me off. I can sense that something is off, especially since she hasn't said a single word to anyone during the whole flight. This has definitely something to do with what Melina revealed. I'll have to talk to her, I make a mental note to myself.
"Mom I'm hungry" my thoughts get interrupted by my daughter,reminding me that she didn't even have breakfast this morning
"Shit I'm sorry honey, I totally forgot"
"No it's fine really can we just make a stop on our way to the house to a bakery or something?"
"Of course! Come get on" I say patting the seat behind me on the bike and she obliges. I let the others know we'll meet them there and head to the city to find a place for her to grab something to eat. After about 10 mins of searching we come across a decent looking sandwich shop.
"Want anything?" Rose asks while getting off the bike
"Nah I'm good" I say and hand her 10€ "I'll wait here" I call after her and watch as she disappears into the shop. I remove my helmet and take a look around, trying to relieve myself of some of the stress that's been building up over the past days. It's not too long before I spot my girl coming towards me, a huge sandwich in one hand and a large Coke on the other
"Really Rose? Coke in the morning?" I smirk raising my eyebrow and she gives me an ignorant grin
"Don't judge me"she sighs,my sassy expression forming on her face, and I can't help but laugh.
"Ok boss" I reply and she cracks a smile "You want to eat it now or when we get to the house?"
I ask even though I see her mounting the bike.
"I'll eat it there let's go"she says and hands me the soda to put in the cup holder. An hour later we finally arrive to the location Yelena handed me, which is confirmed by the black SUV parked in the driveway. I park and we get off the bike, Rose impatiently taking a huge bite off her food.
"Relax it's all yours" I laugh seeing her stuffing her mouth and she shots me a glare but I can see her grin. We let ourselves in and I plant a kiss on her forehead leaving her to eat in peace
"Where are you going mom?"she asks and I turn around
"To talk to your aunt for a little bit. I'll be back before you finish this monster of a sandwich don't worry" I reassure her and she smiles before turning her full attention back to devouring her food.
"Hey, where is Yelena?" I ask Melina who is resting on the couch watching some sort of soap opera.
"Backyard I think" she replies pointing towards a door and I follow that direction,opening the door and viewing a beautiful small garden, full of plants and a little table with 3 chairs, Yelena sitting on one of them.
"Hey" I say in a quiet voice and take a sit next to her, my eyes following the cigarette between her fingers. She notices my glance and offers it to me
"So do you want to talk about it?" I ask and take a hit, the burning smoke feeling my lungs.
"I just dont't get it"she starts "I've spent all my life thinking I could never have kids and eventually came in terms with it, finally getting somewhat rid of the knot in my stomach whenever I saw a pregnant woman go by, or a mother with her child and now? Now I find out that this was not the case?"she asks and I notice her voice trembling.
"Look I know it's a lot to process but hey at least it is a good thing right? I mean now you know and you don't have to feel that pain any longer"
"You don't get it do you?"she snaps "You had a daughter out of nowhere when you didn't even want a kid"she continues
"That's not right. I wanted a daughter and thought about it every single day since I left the Red Room. I just never spoke of it because it hurt me and I don't like people knowing my problems and you know that" I reply even though I know that deep down she already knew that, it's just that she needs to relieve her pain somehow and snapping at me seems to be her only choice
"It's not fair"
"None of what happened to us was fair Yel, we just have to live with it and make the most out of it" I say and turn my attention to the half-opened door and towards my daughter who is still eating in the kitchen far back. I smile soundly before turning back to my sister "You'll make a great mom someday you know" I say and she looks directly into my eyes
"I don't know about that..." she starts
"Aaah so that's what this is about? You're scared" I point out "Well just know that it's normal! Remember how scared I used to be? Hell I still am! You'll never be sure you are doing the right thing. You're never going to be ready enough for what is going to happen. But that is okay. And I know that from experience. My first thought when I found out I was having Rose was that there is no way in hell I was in a position to love a human being like a mother should. And now? As soon as I looked into her eyes I realised that I would die the most painful death just to protect her. And you are far better with kids than I ever was, besides it was you who always wished for them. So I know that it's going to be okay. You just have to stop overthinking it." I confess in an attempt to calm her down.
"It's just that my whole life I've been left out of the loop. You and Melina and Alexei all knew that our family was fake and what was going to happen to me and none of you told me. I spent a huge part of my life under the control of Dreykov, not being able to make decisions on my own, I thought I lost you until I realised that it wasn't you in that casket and now I also find out that I'm not even sterile? What is even real? It seems like something is always going to come up and I'm just tired" she sighs turning to me
"Let it all out" is the only thing I manage to say because truth is she is absolutely right.
"Thanks"she finally says regaining her composure
"Any time sis" I reply and we sit there in complete silence for a good 20 minutes, smoking our cigs and enjoying the peace. I know I'm not good at comforting people since I'm not emotional but she does seem a bit better.
"Look at the time shit we have to go if we are going to make our flight"