Snippets

Snippet #27

Scene after scene plays in my head, making me go insane by the second.

Memory after memory, but not a single one that ever really existed.

I always had an interesting imagination, but ever since you entered my universe it seems like I have lost control of them. I keep thinking of scenarios where we finally speak to each other, ones where you tell me that I wasn't the only one going insane. Scenes play and replay in my head like a broken record, the next different than the last, making me itch to write them all down.

Funnily enough, You're turning my world upside down but I don't even exist in yours.

Maybe I'm delusional. Maybe I've already gone insane. But this insanity is what's keeping me sane in a world that threatens to take away all my senses.

This insanity makes me feel normal, like as if I can be like everyone else. 

Ironic, isn't it? Just wanting to fit in, but wanting to be different in your eyes?

My thoughts don't make sense, my words come out all jumbled and I just want someone to tell me they understand me.

I know that person is not you, I don't know who they are or if I'll ever find them. Maybe I never will. 

But until then, let me be delusional a little bit more.