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Snippet #25

I'm pretty great, you know?

I'm funny. I'm smart. I know how to keep a conversation going and I'm not even too hard on the eyes! I love listening about people's passions, and I'm willing to learn about them even more by myself just so I'll have something in common with them. I'm willing to do anything just to see the people around me smile a little more, laugh a little more, open up a little more. 

But  you're not enough.

Sure, maybe I have a hard time holding conversation with people I'm not close and, sometimes even with people I do know. Sure, sometimes I try a little too hard to come off as a likable character. And, maybe I can be a bit intimidating at times and I may have the tendency to make stupid mistakes. 

Is that all?

Sure, maybe sometimes I can be "too loud," "too talkative," "too annoying," "too irritating"- JUST TOO MUCH. I'm too much. 

Just too much? Aren't you giving yourself too much credit?

I'm lazy, I lose interest in things easily and sometimes I can't find the motivation to work hard for my own life. And maybe, sometimes, I don't want to.

And what does that mean?

And that means I'm not enough. I don't do enough. I don't care enough, I don't try as much as I should. I'm not funny enough, I'm not pretty enough, I'm not smart enough. I'm not there for the people around me. I'm not good enough for anything.

That's right. 

You're not good enough.

I'm not good enough.