When I was about to go back home I heard my phone ringing, I answered and i heard Win's voice, i didn't expact him to call at this moment, he asked me if i have free time right now because he wants to talk to me seriously.
I didn't know if i sould agree because it's already so late and i don't want to be late home or else my mom will beat the shit out of me.. she will probably think i do drugs or something.. and plus i wasn't ready to talk with Win after what happened.. But he insisted and he said he will be quick.
I agreed and told him to wait for me next to my house, i will give him 5 minutes because I'm for real scared to talk with him, i don't know what he is about to tell me and it's never something good..
He waited for me, we sat on steps of my house in awkward silence..
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- "Gun, I'm so sorry for today."
- "Are you for real sorry or..?"
- "Yeah.. I'm so sorry for everything i want to talk with you seriously now, i didn't get to know you better, i only know some things about you but i want to get to know more about you, i will tell you everything about me and i want you to be honest with me i won't lie to you."
- "Alright..?"
- "Look.. sorry for my rections and everything.. i have problems with anger issues.. i'm so sorry but i can't control that, i'm trying my best but i see how much i hurt people with my aggressive behavior, i am for real trying my best to pull myself together but i cant, it's so hard but i promise i will be soft on you from now on.. i promise you Gun.."
- "I'm so sorry to hear that, yeah i can agree that sometimes you cross the line with you aggressive behavior but it's okay.. i understand now and i will try to calm you down at that situation."
- "No please don't, remember this, never try to calm down perosn with anger issues you might even get hurt because of that.. please don't ever try to calm me down i don't want to hurt you, just leave me to calm down myself."
- "Well okay then."
- "Are you okay with telling me something about you now?"
- "I am but please promise me you will still be cool with me.. promise me that."
- "I promise Gun i won't look at you differently after.."
- "Well.. the thing is that..on lord it's so hard to talk about this."
- "Gun it's okay if you're not ready now, i understand.."
- "No wait, i will tell you. So the things is that i have diagnosed depression and ADHD.. im taking pills because of that and i have many more little problems but.. oh God.."
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I can't im not used to talk openly about my feeling, it just feels so wrong opening up to anyone.. I'm so close to cry.
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- "It's okay Gun.. i see you don't really want to talk about it and it's alright i promise, thank you for opening up to me i hope it feels better now when finally said something what you always kept deep inside you.."
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Yeah actually, Win is right what the fuck, it's not the best but i for real feel better when i don't hide it anymore..
I zooned out, i don't know why but it feels so good but also so wrong, i didn't expect him to react like that.. oh my God.
When i started thinking about that Win hugged me and rested his head on my shoulder. I started petting his head like he's a dog, it was sweet to me to be honest, he and Tinn are actually good people oh my God.
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- "Gun it's very late i think i should go home how, see you tomorrow."
- "Yeah, sure."
- "Don't forget, if you need someone you can call me any time, you have my phone number just save it, i will always come and support you, don't be scared of talking to me."
- "Thank you Win, it actually means so much for me."
- "Awh don't worry."
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We hugged and i went home, i saw my mom sleeping on couch as always, with alcohol around her, i went to bathroom to change the bangade and clean my wounds. Oh lord it looks horrible. When will it heal? I put a new bangade on the wounds, brushed my teeth and lay down to sleep.
Before sleeping i thought about today and i questioned some things, why do people hate Tinn so much and if Win has real problems with anger issues how does he has a girlfriend, like isn't she hurt or something? I'm wondering how is she doing right now for real. I let my thoughts question everything they wanted it's not like i can control them..I finally felt sleepy and i finally fell asleep.
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RomanceGun is a boy who was never understood before, he was always second choice and he never felt loved, his family separated when he was 7, he felt terrible for his mother becuse his father was cheating on her, but his father still took him with him. Gun...