I should be your Beta, not your Mate

41 - Birthday

The blue eyes of my father dug into my skin and when our eyes met, I saw that he flinched – only Mom noticed it too and looked at him with a frown.

»Tristan?« she asked carefully but he just shook his head and kissed her cheek. Timid she nodded before she turned to Kiana again who immediately started talking again.

»The pack is almost gathered, most of them are already here,« my father said and looked for a short moment to me before he turned to Alpha Kenneth again.

»Good. You two know what comes now?« Kenneth addressed Cassian and me and we responded with a nod.

Cas nod was lively – almost happy – but on the other hand mine was stiff and like I was a robot. Damn it, this fear was going to kill me!

»Then you two can leave now and party a bit before we announce it.«

Relieved, I dragged Cas behind me and moved towards Cal and Elli.

»Not so stormy,« he laughed. Quietly, without him hearing, I grit my teeth. Didn't he get that I was fucking scared?

All of a sudden, he pulled me back so I jerked against his chest and gasped because his body was like a solid wall. Damn muscles!

»I will get us something to drink. What can I get you?«

He wrapped his arms around my belly and spoke so close to my ear that I could feel his hot breath. Shivers went down my spine and made me tremble.

And then, he wandered lower and touched my neck with his lips, I flinched and needed to grind my teeth to not whimper in desperation.

Just what was wrong with my body?!

Okay, we never really were deep with each other. Kisses that went a little bit deeper and longer, yes, but we never really made out with each other – only our first kiss would I count as making out.

»Cas...« I croaked with a tremble in my voice.

He growled in response and his deep, greedy growl awoke a desire in me I didn't know I had. God, what was wrong with me?

»Cassian! Before you undress him and start performing a live-porno for us all, could you let go of him? My little brother seems to break down!«

Abruptly Cassian let go of me which made me stumble two steps forward and I needed to pull myself together to not sink to my knees. My legs felt wobbly.

With wide eyes Cas stared at me, shook his head and blinked in confusion.

»I will get us two beers, that's okay, right?« he asked and didn't sound like he was himself at all.

»Y-Yes...« I stammered and saw him run away. I looked after him for two seconds before Ellinor grabbed my arms and pulled me up to her and Caleb.

»What's going on with you two? I know you two have a relationship now, but Cassian's eyes glowed like he wanted to rip your clothes off and do you know what,« my older sister said, flabbergasted.

»No idea.« I really had no idea.

I only knew that I reacted more sensitive than ever to his touch and that my heartbeat quickened with every gesture, laugh, smile and only when I looked at him was enough. And, I would keep it a secret, I wouldn't have minded it if he had undressed me.

»Maybe it's because of the Luna-announcement. Maybe the wolves inside you guys feel that they take over the pack today and it's known that the bond between Alpha and Luna gets stronger when they lead a pack. Maybe that's the reason why you react that extreme to each other.«