I should be your Beta, not your Mate

26 - Black eye

I felt like throwing up as I still watched her treating my infected wounds and turned my eyes away.

»Please, don't ask me how I got to be the Luna even though I'm the Beta. I don't have any idea. But you are right, we hated each other. However, now we need to work together and the bond between us is stronger than you might think. It's fucking exhausting to be near him and withstanding the desire to jump on him and let him make me his completely. We want to do those things slowly and now we're... well.«

I blushed around the nose and needed to think back to last night.

»We are in a relationship now and it just feels right. Elli once said when I came back to Germany that he regretted everything. And to be happy I would need to forgive him and I want to be happy with him. I can see that he is serious about this, he wants to make me happy and doesn't want to hurt me anymore. That's why I can just forgive him. To be happy and to not life in the past any longer.«

Thoughtful, she nodded.

»I will never understand the bond, so I will never understand how it feels. But I can understand your words. Doctor Taylor always tells us about the strong bond between Alpha and Luna. However, that's why I can also imagine how stressful it must be. After all, it must have been a great shock for you both to recognize each other. Mostly for you.«

Smirking, I thought back to the moment and needed to shake my head.

Who did he mean with his words back then, that only one person was destined for him? He probably thought about a girl he never met – probably always thought a girl would be his mate and not a guy.

»Oh yes, a great shock. Ellinor and I unpacked my stuff and later the Alpha family was invited for dinner. After all, my return was some good news. Well and then, when the bell rang, I wanted to go downstairs and got bewitched from his smell. I can't even tell anymore how mesmerizing it smelled. And then we stared at each other. I don't know how long we just stood there and stared, but after what felt like an eternity, we both growled and he ran up the stairs to wrap me up in his arms. Like every other mate pair that met we took in the scent of the other, cuddled and rubbed our scent at the other so others would understand that they're taken. The thing is, I only realized slowly who I hugged. He got mad and yelled at me. His mother then calmed him down and in the moment my name fell Cas went into a shock state. You need to know; I had brown hair at that time.«

She giggled and tousled my hair. »Brown hair may look good on you but your blond hair is still the best,« she said.

»By the way, do you want to shower?« she then asked and immediately I nodded. I would take every chance to clean myself.

»I will bring you crutches after your shower so you can move around on your own. You probably don't want to stay in this room all the time as I know you and a wheelchair would be annoying and isn't that necessary even though you can't really move your leg right now. It's better to get on your legs faster.«

Smirking, I watched her getting clean clothes out of the closet and how she brought them into the bathroom. After that she went to get a wheelchair from the hallway and I got out of my bed to sit in it.

»Now it's probably better to use it because I can't support you with my small body. When you finish showering, wait a little bit with your pants. I need to put on a new bandage. Ah and put that over the wounds so they don't get in contact with the water.«

She gave me a plastic bag that I would put over my thigh.

I thanked her and then started to wash myself on my own, sitting on a chair for the shower. After I felt clean enough and not gross anymore, I switched off the water, dried myself and put fresh underwear on.