but I love you.. bakugo x deku

CHAPTER 16

  ♡ Izukus pov:  ⚠️ ED

"Why are you so fucking nervous? " Kacchan asked with a confused face and tone of voice facing my way as I was playing with my fingers in my lap, trying to focus on my hand instead

Why was I so nervous? Probably because I knew as soon as I ate something, I would probably throw it all up after due to my body not being normaly used to food since I didn't eat and when I did it was the very littlest amount just enough to keep me going since I knew I was fat and needed to lose weight just like my mother said so whenever she was punishing me because i had done something wrong to upset her or annoy her and with kacchan in the room with me it made it impossible to find a way to not eat I couldn't just throw it in the bin and just forget about it and forget about eating just like earlier and I couldn't and wasn't going to ask Kacchan to leave I liked his company..?

"I-im not nervous..?"
I replied, facing Kacchan with a small smile, trying to say in a convincing tone, but I have never been able to get away with lying. You could tell exactly when I was lying, but I was really hoping today was the day it would seem believable

He scoffed at me he could tell I was lying.

"What's wrong, nerd, please can you just tell me I don't want you upset about shit" he says while looking into my eyes kinda angry and upset?

"I-I it's nothing I e-erm its just-, no I'm fine nevermind!..."

He just looks at me and gives me a half smile, upset and confused

Until to my luck, the nurse came in with my breakfast,I deeply gulp while looking at the food on the trap as she walked up to me

"Here you go, izuku!" The nurse passed me the food and water bottel on the blue tray I took hesitantly, not wanting to take the food at all

"T-thank y-you"

"You're welcome! Doctor Smith will be with you in an hour or so, " she says, informing me with a smile as she leaves the hospital room to go give the other patients breakfast as well as

As she left the room, I took the water that was on the tray, and then I placed the tray of now just food on the bed, I and Kacchan were now sitting far away from me not wanting to look at it hoping kacchan wouldn't question it

I opened the water bottel and basically chugged it. I was extremely thirst

Kacchan gave me a confused and concerned face since I just decided to push the food away from myself

"Deku." He says with an angry tone

"Mhm..?" I replied, knowing exactly what he was about to say to me

He just pushes the food back towards me, signalling me to eat it with a strong anger look in his eyes

I look down at the food and back up to kacchan and just slowly and slightly shake my head for a 'no'

"Deku, you need to eat goddammit!"

I just stare at Kacchan and then stare at the food

I put my arms around my legs, pulling them into my chest while putting my head into them

"Deku..."

I start tearing up slowly

"Come on... please deku.."

I shake my head 'no' still having my head placed on my legs

I hear kacchan slightly sigh and move towards me he pulls me into a comforting hug

"Come here, deku...its alright."

He puts his arms around me and pulls me onto his lap in a warm hug, and I start sobbing into his chest