but I love you.. bakugo x deku

CHAPTER 37

Triger warnings flash backs of abuse and sh ⚠️
Izukus POV:

"Alright, want to watch something while we fall to sleep then nerd?"He asks, and I nod my head

We decided on watching superstore, and he played it on his phone, putting in the view of both of us. we were both in bed, and kacchan was cuddling up to me, making me blush a lot

After a few episodes, my eyes feel weak, and I slowly drift off to sleep

(Nightmare) ⚠️

"YOU FUCKING BRAT!"

"I-im s-sorry I didn't mean to drop the c-cup I-Im sorry!"

"LOOK AT THE MESS THERES WATER EVERYWHERE GOD WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MESS EVERYTHING UP?!"

"I-Im s-so s-sorry!"

"GOD STOP JUST STOP,STOP WITH YOUR APOLOGY IF YOU WERE SORRY IT WOULD OF NEVER HAPPENED WOULD IT?!"

I stay silent scared and terrified

"PICK IT FUCKING UP WOULD YOU GOD I DO EVERYTHING AROUND THIS HOUSE!"

I do as my mum says and picks up the sharp shard of glass scattered across the kitchen floor one by one with my bare hand

My mother then storms out of the house angrily and drives of into the distance probably finding the next club to get wasted at

At this point I was sobbing I hated shouting I hated it so much more then anything

I was almost finished picking up the sharp glass until I was cut by one of the sharp edges of the shard of glass that used to be in the form of a glass cup

(After that)

I wake up sweating, panicking and shaking and I start to crave something once again with tears rolling down the sides of my cheeks

I move kacchan's hands from off me gently and step out of bed then walk to the other side of the room to reach into my bag of stuff from home quietly not wanting to wake kacchan up

I finally found what I was looking for it was a small jewlery box that used to hold a necklace inside that I got as a gift from a friend it was a dark purple with a light purple bow on it

I quickly and quietly walk into the bathroom holding the small box in my hand I close the door behind me and turn on the bathroom light as I slowly open the box

It's contents now was a couple of blades

I pick one of the blades up and look at it inspecting it then move my eyes to the mirror there were tears roling down my cheeks with my eyes puffy

I look back down at my hands as I roll up my sleeve I take a breath and look away as I slowly apply pressure onto my arm several times feeling the pain

After I felt as if I was done I look down at my arm seeing the damage that had happened and started to panic I put down the blade and looked into the cupboard to look for anything I found a roll of bandages at the back of it and moved everything out of the way and grabbed the bandages I started to wrap it around my arm with pressure to stop the bleeding then rolled my sleeve back down as I quickly put everything back in its place

I put the blades back into the small box and rush back to my room

I open my door quietly and rush to my bag putting the box back into my bag hoping I wasn't caught but as I go back to my bed and there was Kacchan awake looking at me and I froze

"K-kacchan w-why are you a-awake..?" I asked hoping he wouldn't ask any questions about the box

"Deku,what is in that box?"he asks bluntly skipping my question

"W-what b-box?" I lie

"The box you just put back into your fucking bag Izuku"

"I-I...."

He gets out of the bed and walks towards me

"Deku...please tell me what is in that box and why did you come out of the bathroom and why are you crying?" He says wiping my tears with his thumbs

I stay silent and just carry on silently crying

"Please izuku can I see the box then..?"

I quickly shock my head no

He sadly sighs and kneels down infront of me

"Please izuku I'm worried about you,please tell me or let me see..please"

I nodded my head after a bit of thinking and points to my bag meaning that he can look

He smiles sadly at and and goes to my bag and grabs the small box and opens it and I look away

It was silent

"Oh..Izuku" he says and puts the box on a side table that was next to my bag and walks up to me and pulls me into a hug not touching my arm

I sob more

"Baby..please its okay its okay" he says trying to sooth me softy

"Izu...why?" He asks pulling out of the hug

"M-mom n-nightmare" it was all I was able to get out without sobbing more

"Shh.. its okay calm down izu you're okay.."

"Come on baby let's sit on the bed..." He says and I notice the tears that were now in his eyes

He sits on the bed as I sit on his lap while I cry into his chest hopelessly

To be continued...