Bittersweet Hearts

24~ the reunion

It's tunganga Tuesday. Last night felt like a beautiful dream. Did that really happen? I remember the feeling clearly but it's more like a memory since our setting was vaguely dark. Then again, another thought entered my mind. One month. I can't believe I just confessed my feelings AND kissed Julien the same day I promised Stephen that I'll wait for a month to decide. Gaga ka, Andy. Ugh.

Maybe hindi ako chaos magnet but rather chaos creator. Ang gulo gulo na ng buhay ko but somehow I managed to make it even messier and more complicated. Galing. Ang galing mo talaga, Andrea Ysabelle.

"You okay?" Tanong ni Julien habang paakyat na kami sa classroom.

"Yes." I smiled at him.

"Hay, I'm going to miss you, bub. Uuwi na sila today." Sabi niya. Oo nga pala, sa kakaisip ko sa dalawang lalaki sa puso ko, I forgot about Mama.

"Oo nga eh. I'll miss the twins and the ates pero I'll still see you everyday." I told him.

"Well, yeah bub, but not like last night." He pouted.

"Sira ka talaga." I nudged him and blushed. Naalala ko na naman. Bwisit to. But he's totally right. We wouldn't have the same opportunity as we did.

We reached the second floor and my face was still slightly burning. For sure namumula rin.

"Ang pula mo, sis. Pinakilig ka na naman neto? Everyday kilig for breakfast huh." Asar ni Hannah as we passed her by.

"Of course. You know it." Sagot agad ni Julien mahangin Araneta.

"Heh, hindi. See you later, sis." Paalam ko as we walked ahead.

Julien was giggling as we walked into our classroom. To be honest I don't regret anything last night. My feelings towards him became clearer to me since yesterday. Honestly it's not because of Stephen, but the realization that I might lose Julien. Pero syempre one month is still a long way. Di natin alam ano mangyayari. Let's just see what will happen in a month mga sez. Besides, we're still half fake jowa here. We just have to keep it up until it becomes true. Stephen, on the other hand, uh, let's worry about him later.

I actually missed his call last night when we were playing in the library. I just texted him I was busy and we'll talk some other time. He was cool about it naman and greeted me good night. And a good morning earlier. Sobrang naninibago ako. Maybe we weren't big on texting when we were together. But I can sense how much Stephen has changed in a span of 3 months. Or was it me who changed? I don't know anymore. Basta I have a lot of thinking (and feeling) to do. One month, Andy. Let's do this.

Finally it's lab time in Chemistry class. Yung pinakahihintay ng bebe ko. Honestly I don't get why. Siya lang excited. Karamihan samin antok pa. Including me.

Today's experiment is determining types of elements. We were given ready-to-go kits per table. The laboratory was big enough for two classes kaya we didn't have to share tables with other pairs. I guess this was the reason why he likes lab classes. We even sat at the back away from prying eyes.

"Okay, game?" He asked as he read the kit instructions and I skimmed through our lab manual. Nagulat ako na he was all business. Walang pacute antics or corny comments.

"Yeah." I said, preparing the materials.

"Okay, got it." He said as he quickly arranged the elements to be sorted after reading the instructions. Nagmamadali ka gurl?

"The first two elements are metalloids..." He told me and I fumbled to write it on my manual. Omg. What's the rush? Binibilisan talaga niya. Or was he just a genius and I'm a slowpoke?