Dear diary,
It's 2009. Wordpress is in [Wattpad is not yet out]. Uso sa munting school namin ang magsulat. Sis lahat naging instant authors. Bilang takot akong maiwanan sa trend, why not join the fun, di ba? Pwede kong gawin online diary itong blog...
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"Life has disappointments... to some people." Okay, it goes something like that. Thrice ko nang napanuod ang Despicable Me and that line strikes me everytime. Yep, sometimes we get disappointed so much that it hurts big time. It feels like every part of me would burst out and I fear nothing would keep me together. Not even him.
Where is he anyway? Ano kayang ginagawa niya... Is he thinking of me kaya? Because obviously, I am thinking of him. Sad. Parang kailan lang I was laughing all the time. Pati nga pag natutulog ako eh!
Pero...ganyan siguro talaga. That's life. And it sucks.
May kumatok at kaagad naman siyang pumasok. It's Mikee, my bestfriend. After everything that happened, she still is and will always be. Well, sana.
"Huy, wag ka namang magmukmok diyan. It's a Saturday. Gawd! Don't torture yourself, sis."
I just looked at her. No words came out eh. Natatakot kasi ako na baka bigla nalang akong sumabog and I don't know if I could manage. My eyes said it all: para bang "But it hurts so much, Mikes..." at ayun, tumulo ang pasaway kong luha.
"Awww, Ands..."
She went to me and hugged me tightly. We just sat there, dissolving in silence as we drowned in our thoughts. Ano nga bang nangyari?? Parang kailan lang...hay.
Parang kailan lang I saw myself enter Westville Academy. Parang kailan lang I met my long-lost Childhood Sweetheart. Parang kailan lang we pretended to be together. Parang kailan lang may nakaaway pa akong bruha na ewan na ex niya. Parang kailan lang kinilig kilig ako kasi he likes me pala. Parang kailan lang we were together, for real. Parang kailan lang... Next time ko na ikukwento yun, kapag di na ako natitrigger.
Basta ang point ko is I hate those three words. Parang kailan lang. I want to ride a time machine at bumalik sa mga oras na yun. Rewind. Play. Stop. Ganun, tapos solb nako. Maybe it was my fault. Akala ko I had everything. Maling mali pala ako beh. I guess there can never be an oh-so-perfect life. Trust me.
x
Ako nga pala si Andrea Alfonso (call me Andy for short). I used to be a sweet, weak and girly girl. Now, feeling ko I'm still sweet, but tougher and matured. I am an only child by the way. Yung parents ko "it's complicated" ang status pero I live with my mom recently. Dati akong estudyante sa Westville Academy pero due to recent unhappy events, nagtransfer ako to St. Therese University. Ang dami na ngang nangyari nung summer, lilipat pa ako ng school. Ugh, I hate my life right now. Ang iniisip ko nalang is start anew ang peg ko this junior year. Maybe I need this change and I deserve a new life. Naexcite ako ng konti.
"O, wala nang iiyak ha. First day pa naman bukas. Baka akala nila normal na maga yung mata mo." Mikee teased.
Real talker talaga to. That's why I love her and I'll miss her so much.
"Mamimiss kita. Wag mo akong pagpalit ha." I told her.
One month na kaming clingy ever since nakabalik ako from the States. Hindi na kasi kami same school kaya kailangan bumawi.
