The Diary of an obsessive idiot(diary 4)

ranting again :)

i apologize if this entry seems a little unintelligible it's late and i'm exhausted.

anyways so last time i mentioned how i tore the ligament in my foot again, well i then had covid, after that i had a bad sinus infection so i just returned to work last tuesday, which is fine y'know, work's work. the only pressing issue is that i may do my ankle/foot again, but i have an appointment on thursday so hopefully that can help me get back on track.

so this is just me thinking of the past, more just the me of the past in highschool. i don't really know how to word it, i felt like an outcast so i don't know why, but my personality kind of adapted to that of an outcast. around the girl i like i'm always stumbling over myself, and at work i'm normal, at least i feel it. my point is am i just going to fill the role i feel i belong in? it's something to think about in the least. man that was one incoherent paragraph.

serious for a moment however ever since i started my latest meds it's felt as though the world has become slighthtly less frightening and much more hospitable, like i'm not scared of every little insignificant action. if i could describe this feeling i would, but it's just so freeing i'm at a loss for words. cue tomorrow when i'm feeling like ass.

aanyways it's late, i got to be up at 5:30 tomorrow so i'm going to go to sleep :')