I couldn't fight the monster that was haunting me—I'd let it in. Thankfully it was time to go home so I left, crying. And as soon as I reached my home's not so comfortable, I burst into tears. "Shit. I messed up over there." I cursed all that had happened. "Why am I like this? Why am I experiencing this? Why did it go that way?" I questioned everything, I longer can't keep. I hesitated to talk to Rhys, I felt like I had to but I still can't for now. I let time pass by writing. It's the only thing that comforts me. Because in that way, I can leave my mind full of words and emotions that I could not talk about or even express. And all of the sudden, a notification from my phone pops up—a text message. From Rhys. I opened it and read what it says. "Are you all right? I'm sorry about earlier. Please reply." He texted. I hesitated again if I would give him a response but it'd be rude if I didn't. "Yeah, you? I'm sorry as well but I need an explanation. I texted back. "I'm fine as well. That girl was someone from the other class and we're friends. I told her to do something but she messed it up and reasoned that she liked me. And after that, she kissed me but I swear, I didn't kiss her back, I never liked it or her." He'd reply to my question. I wanted to hate myself and him but I would also like to talk everything out.
I left him after that. I wanted to give myself some time. I needed to think and calm myself down. I'd also wish if only I could turn off my mind for a second but it's far more than impossible. Peace. I'd just stare into the void in my room and feel numb but I also feel everything simultaneously. You know—when you can't understand yourself. I soon fall asleep, it was the only way to turn off my mind.
I reached for my phone as soon as I wake up, I was gonna text Tenny but I saw that he had a message. I opened the chat window and saw something that he sent. I viewed the text and saw that it was a poem—written by him brighter than the sun,
Your eyes shine brighter the sun,
Your glare is soft like the moon.
I'm sorry for bruising you up with my mind.
I can read you well.
It says. I soften a little and felt a little peace of mind. I don't know but I felt like he understands me, understands me better than I do. "Hey. Thank you for the poem. I'm sorry, I needed some time to think." I said. "Hey, you're welcome. I understand, I'm sorry as well. I'll give you more time as much as you need." He replied. My mind is gradually going at ease. I am slowy becoming myself again. I could never hate you, me, and us.
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These Lost Romantic Souls
RomanceHenry Glucksberg also goes as Eli or Eliot, is in the process of finishing his novel. He meets this man named Tennyson also goes for Rhys, and they become close. Henry finds out that Rhys is his childhood friend but it was when they were 4 years old...