A Piece of You

VII

"If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change."

-Wayne Dyer

Spencer's

I knew it, tama ang kutob ko na sooner or later mararamdaman din ni Allie na may hindi tama— na may itinatago ako sa kanya. I don't want to hide it but, I need more time to compose myself. Hindi madali para sa akin na sabihin sa kanya at alam ko ring hindi magiging madali para sa kaniya ang lahat but, this is the reality.

I have to make everything perfect before I tell her everything about my leukemia. I never wanted this. Supposedly, I'll come back next year to make everything right but, things happened.

**Flashback**

"Goodbye everyone and congratulations for finishing this semester." Bati sa amin ng professor namin.

Excited akong matapos na ang semester dahil naayos ko na lahat ng requirements ko for transferring sa university nila Allie. At last makakasama ko na ulit si Allie.

I was about to find my way home but I felt completely dizzy. Ilang araw nang masama ang pakiramdam ko at pabalik-balik rin ang lagnat ko.

Instead of going straight home, I headed straight to the hospital. I told the doctor about what I'm feeling these past few days and he told me to get my blood tested.

After kong magpa-kuha ng blood sample ay umuwi na ako dahil hindi na talaga maganda ang pakiramdam ko. I'm feeling dizzy.

"Anak your home. Naayos mo na ba yung mga requirements mo for your transfer?" My mom asked.

"Yes ma, I'll head upstairs na, sobrang nahihilo po ako." I said. Then everything went black.

When I woke up I was already at the hospital. A bag of blood and a dextrose were hanging at the stand.

The doctor was standing beside my mom who's looking at me with a very concern look.

"Ma, what happened?" I asked.

"Anak nahilo ka at nawalan ng malay. Anak, you have to know your condition, kung bakit ka nahilo, kung bakit balik-balik ang lagnat mo." My mom seriously said.

"Magiging okay rin ako bukas, labas na tayo. Ayokong lumipad pabalik ng Pilipinas na bagong labas sa ospital" I said.

"Anak, I'm afraid you have to reschedule your flight." She said. She's serious and though I don't want to get scared but her tone was scary.

Ano ba talagang meron?

"Spencer, listen to your mom, flying to the Philippines this weekend won't do you any good." The doctor suddenly spoke.

"Pero doc—" naputol ang sasabihin ko when the doctor said something that almost shuttered my world.

"Proceed with your flight if you want to arrive in the Philippines cold and in a body bag." I was caught off guard by what he said.

"Spencer you have Leukemia and the count of your white blood cells is extremely high, we need to transfer at least 3 bags of blood para tumaas ang red blood cells mo for your oxygen." The doctor explained.