Written on 26/02/2018
Saturday at 5:02 pm
POV of the bully
a continuation of the poem Numb
I hurt you so I'd feel better,
When in reality, I was just weaker.
I told you looked ugly,
When I was jealous your smile radiated so much beauty.
I hurt you even when I knew it was wrong,
'Cause with you, I wanted to act strong.
I insulted and pushed you and you were silent,
When I took things further, I knew you'd be quiet.
I thought I'd feel better with every blow I made,
Towards your body creating scars that wouldn't fade.
But I never felt that satisfaction,
I only broke when I saw your expression.
One day I saw you walk to the library,
I was about to punch you but you showed no sign of fury.
I asked you why you didn't fight for yourself,
You shrugged and said," this is what I deserve."
I was scared then but I was for you,
'Cause, you'd changed for the worst too.
I couldn't even recognize the girl you became,
Just a skinnier body with the same name.
I knew it was my fault, I was to blame,
I wish I'd stopped and didn't want the fame.
Too many times I almost whispered I'm sorry to your ears,
As I saw your eyes well up with unshed tears.
But apologizing won't do anything,
It wouldn't stop the past from happening.
So I set for myself a new aim,
To help you heal and reframe.
I tried and tried to lend you my hand,
I knew I was late and I understand.
But I wish I made it before you died,
'Cause now I live with my regret eternalized.
#bullyPOV #bullying #school #suicide #regret
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