An insight into what Mariana Cortéz and Thomas Shelby were like before the violence and murder
And how they became so numb to the world around them.
How they came together and fell apart before the war.
And how the Shelby's became the notorious, ru...
"Thanks for seeing me" he said "Just stay quiet, I gave you that all that time ago, just listen to me, please" I asked He nodded "I... I won't lie Tommy, hearing about her hurt, a lot" I said
"It wasn't anything serious" he said "Tommy" I warned, I told him not to speak And that somehow felt even worse That it had meant nothing
"It hurt, I can't help that, I have this pull to you that I can't get rid of and I want to be around all the time if I could, but knowing you lied to me. Again. I just... I don't know where we go from here" I said honestly "Im sorry" he said
"That's all you seem to ever say these days. Me too. We're just running on a cycle of hurting each other and apologising, giving each other never ending chances" I said "It needs to stop" I said "Meaning?" He asked
"Meaning. We stay friends. Proper friends not... not whatever we've been doing. Constantly falling back to each other" I said "Friends? That's all you want from us? After everything?" He asked, anger evident in his voice but he was clearly trying to remain calm
"I think that's what's best for us, some people aren't meant to be Tommy" I said "And that includes us?" He asked "I think so" I said sadly
"That's bullshit Mar" he said "Sometimes life is shit Tommy, we just have to roll with it" I said, looking down You can adapt or you can fight, like Polly said... the fighters are the unhappy ones.
"Or we can be happy with each other" he said, grabbing hold of my face and making me look him in the eye
"And wait for something to go wrong and for you to jump into bed with someone else? Wait for someone to leave me and my mind escape me? We've done awful things Tommy, awful things to people who didn't deserve them. We've hurt each other more than most actual couples ever could" I said.
"Please. Please just give us a chance" he said "Just one more chance" he said I looked at him for a while Into his crystal blue eyes holding years of hurt and hope
"Tommy... I gave you a chance, I asked you to be honest with me and you lied to me, you chose to lie to me" I said sadly "I think it's the end of the road for us" I said He looked down, his grip tightening on my cheeks as he sighed, taking a moment.
Before he leaned in and kissed me, softly and slowly Making my heart ache "I love you" he whispered against my lips "Don't make it harder than it is" I said, trying not to cry
"I'm sorry" he said again, like a broken record Reminding me over and over that I was breaking our hearts yet again "No I am" I said He pulled me into him, hugging me tightly
It was comforting And odd comfort but comfort nonetheless That was our problem We'd run to each other whenever we were upset And now we'd upset each other, we needed each other.
Tommy's POV
And that's where it ends She doesn't want me I couldn't be enough for her I don't even know why I lied to her in the first place, I think I was just scared of losing her And I've wound up losing her anyway
"It will get better" Freddie said, taking the bottle from me as we sat on the bridge, hanging our legs over the side "Don't tell me that" I said, taking it back after he'd taken a swig "Ah come on, you managed to get over her the first time round" he said
"I never got over her Fred, I just stopped thinking about her as much as I could" I admitted It was always her In the back of my head At the front of my worries Fuelling my jealousy
It was all always her.
"Well do that again yeah? What about that fair girl?" He asked "She was nothing, and the massive bruise on my chest is a reminder to not go anywhere near her again" I said I can't believe he shot me with a fucking squirrel gun Why was he so annoyed? How did he even know I fucked his daughter?
"Well you need to figure something out, with France and Germany joining this war it'll be no time before we're pulled into it" he chuckled "Get some action while you can" he said "You offer very blunt advice for someone who's supposed to be a neutral party" I said
"I love Mar alright? She's the sister I always wanted" he said "You have a sister" I pointed out "Yes. And she's the sister I wanted" he said, making me roll my eyes "If she thinks this it the right idea then it is, trust her judgement Tommy, she's been through enough" he said.
"I know" I said. I'd put her through enough. I just needed to be there for her And hope that she'd change her mind But I was doubtful she would.
Mariana's POV
"Is this a bad time?" Dorothy asked down the line "No, of course not" I said, putting my pen down I had taken Dot's advice, and written my feelings down in a letter for Tommy It seemed like a stupid idea to me when I had sat down to write it
But it felt good, to get all of my feelings out onto paper, besides it's not like he was ever going to read it.
I sealed it, writing his name on the front and putting it away into a drawer "How are things in London?" I asked "They're great, but I heard you and Tommy were having some trouble?" She asked
"And who did you hear that from?" I asked "Well... John told me all about the man shouting about his daughter and then shooting Tommy, you seemed to have down played that part to me a little bit" she said "I think I would have been able to cope if we hadn't..." "Hadn't what? Fucked? Did you fuck?" She asked surprised.
"Yes, we fucked" I sighed "I knew it! Tell me everything" she demanded.
How long did she have?
Tommy's POV
Sweets. She liked sweets She'd appreciate these, right? "Tommy?" "What?" I asked, not paying attention "Can we talk?" The girl asked "I don't have tim-" I stopped. As Zelda stood before me on the doorstep.
"What do you want?" I asked.
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