A Chapter Named C [pt.2]

Clockwork

My body is still accustomed to
Getting ready at 11:30
Waiting every single night
For you to come home from work
You would call me five minutes out
Already have something to watch
Bring some snacks for the night
And we'd smoke for an hour
In your car, wrapped in a blanket
But we haven't been here together
In over three months now
I can't watch those channels anymore
Wouldn't dream of touching those snacks
It all just feels  empty without you here
So i take an hour here alone
Listening to the frogs at the pond below
Waiting for my body to be ready
For us both to be done smoking
So we could go upstairs
Get ready for bed
Curl up together
And fall asleep
In each other's arms
Even though i know
I'll wake up alone

[5/12/2022]