love will tear us apart- robin buckley

26.

mels pov:
we finally made it to the attic, the light was still shimmering, i turned my head to both lucas and robin, them giving me a worried nod to contuine

the light suddenly died down i scrunched my eyebrows in confusing, looking back at them confused, turning back to the light, "what are you waiting for asshole.. hm? im right here, im right here!" i said

"i know you can hear me, i know you can read my thoughts.. even the worst ones, maybe most of the worst ones" i said, placing the lattern down next to the webbed bottles, taking off my headphones and cassete tape placing it down, sitting with my legs crossed on the small carpet

"i thought about what you said.. about how i wanted my dad to die" i started, already feeling a lump in my throat form, a couple days ago i would have never brought up my dads death infront of lucas let alone robin

me and lucas werent that close, but we still had a good bond, an older sister he didnt have, as seemingly all the children did, none of them had an older sister exept mike, but he still secertly looked up to me for advice, especially last summer with eleven, he hasnt talked to me about eleven almost at all lately, he mostly had just been talking to me about his hellfire campaigns and how 'annoying' nancy was- about how she was always rushing him for school and little things like that

god i had hoped- prayed to the god i didnt believe even- that mike, will, and eleven were all safe in california

but anyways- after being somewhat close with lucas and robin, she would have never mentioned her dad, but now it didnt matter a single bit

chances are, i was going to die

"i thought that you were just trying to upset me.. to anger me.. but you werent were you? you were just telling the truth.. he made my life.. living hell, even though i was so young- any time i was around him" i said with a blank expression

"so sometimes.. i would lay in bed at night, i would.. when i believed in god, i would.. pray, i would pray that something would happen to him, something awful.. when i asked mom why he couldn't take me to school and she told me that it was because 'he drank to much of those bottles he drove funny- and that he could crash the car and we could get badly hurt' i- i would imagine him crashing dying in that stupid car.. i just- i wanted him out of my life- my moms life.. forever.. i wanted him to disappear.. th day that he died.. i think thats when i just stopd there.. watched, not because i was scared or.. weak, but because- i didnt know if he deserved to be saved.. and ive tried to forgive myself, ive tried- but.. i cant, i cant. so now, now when i lay in bed at night.. i- pray that something will happen to me" i let out a sad dry laugh at the end

"not that i even believe in god, but it worked last time, when i prayed about my dad so- i prayed that something terrible would happen to me.. so thats why im here.. because- i just want you to take me away, and i want you.. to make me dissapear.." i said dull

"is that.. all true?" robins voice came out of nowhere, i turned to her, lucas was nowhere to be seen, robin was look ahead at the ground, "you wanted your dad to die?" she said dryly

"why are you talking?" i whispered confused, robin turned her head at me, "you ever have thoughts like that about me?" robin said, i stood up with my eyebrows scrunched in confusion

"what? no rob- never" i said looking at her, "normal people dont fantasize about killing other people mel.. you realize that right?" she said, now turning her whole body, "rob- please" i whispered

"i thought you were getting better, but you're not, are you? you are sick" robin said getting closer "rob you dont mean that" i whispered, me taking footseps backwards everytime she takes a footstep closer

"i should have known a d*ke couldnt be normal.. maybe its good he takes you, maybe its for the best, in fact..  im glad its going to be you" robin said making tears fall down from my face, her voice started to get disordered, "you will be the chosen one, the fourth, the final sacrifice, its going to be you that breaks the world" robin said now with a full disorded voice and white eyes,still getting closer, now backing me up to the wall

"mel.. where are you going? dont be scared" robin said "stay away from me" i said knowing it was vecna, "mel.. i thought you said you were ready, ready to disappear" i grabbed the closest thing to me, "i said stay away!" i yelled hitting her- him- and running dowm the steps opening vecnas door, wood pannels blocking off the outside

"where you going, melody?" i turned my head to see vecna at the top of the staircase, i ran through the halls, opening another door to reveal more wood pannels, shutting the door and running around to another door
opening it to see the steps of my downstairs,
there was a little girl struggling to hold a plate of spaghetti and beer, it was younger me, i heard the voices of my mom

"holy shit" i mumbled in shock, the glass of beer and plate shattering as younger me dropped it, i closed my eyes and began to think of all my favorite memories

me and the kids playing dnd for the first time together, before everything happened

steve coming up to my table at lunch in the fourth grade and sitting down next to me because i was all alone

me and chrissy staying up to 4am as she got high for the first time

me, max, and eleven all having a 'girls' night

me and eddie talking shit about almost everyone in our school while passing a joint

me and robin making out

steve sneaking the kids in the back of scoops ahoy

properly meeting robin for the first time

i opened my eyes to see that i was in the backroom of scoops ahoy sitting down at the table where i met robin for the very first time

i stood up and looked around, robins board of 'you rule' and 'you suck' leaned against the wall
"holy shit" i mumbled yet again in disbelief
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i was now sitting down ontop of the counter by the front of the scoops ahoy, summer 85' mall music quietly playing in the background, looking ahead at all the empty booths lost in thought when one of the closed tubs of icecream bursted open blood pouring from it, i jumped terrifed when another popped open with blood pouring out

moments later two of the tubs bursted open, and so did the rest, i froze their in shock, suddenly i heard the music change to 'dream a little dream of me'

suddenly, everything around me began to rust, all or the bright colors of the room diming to a deeper, sadder, duller color, dust particals falling, i heard thunder struct, looking out the windows seeing the sky, a big grey storm being red anytime it struct
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a/n
i would make this chapter longer but its 4:30am where i am and im supposed to have a picnic and go swimming at my beach and sleepover my friends sooo i should have gone to sleep ages ago but i didnttt [lets ignore the fact that im probably gonna be awake for at least another hour] also i kinda like writing only this amount bc its eaiser for me to maintain and its also quicker so yeah

ill prob be out witj the next chapter to my other book real soon (either tonight or sat night)

also lmk if u guys want me to right like a chapter of the memories?? like the mormies i listed like w chrissy and her getting high and stuff like if u want me when im done writing this book to add another chapter of all those bc i think i would like writing them and they r just cute so yeah lmk

also if u read my a/n's then i love you 💕

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