Love.
As 'beautiful' as love can be it hurts and bleeds. If you're unlucky you may even love the very person you know you can't have.
The best friend,
The distant boyfriend,
The sisters friend,
The brothers friend,
The ex best friend,
Love isn't alw...
'Don't.' I say quickly before deciding to elaborate since that's not really a useful answer. 'I mean like...it's not going to help if you blame yourself Diana. It's normal for siblings to bicker and tease one another and I doubt that you just suddenly started messing with her a week ago. As blunt as it sounds if it really bothered her then she would have way more cuts than she currently does because it would've dated back to when you where children. There's no point is saying you're the cause and problem when life's a bitch and it's going to throw shit at you, she's had so much going on and so much to handle and you just wouldn't have known...for all we know someone could've been making her life a living hell and it would have nothing to do with you,'
I notice her hands begin to stop tapping.
'Think if it like 'just because you can't see the problem it doesn't mean it isn't there',' I summarize. 'Just because you're unaware of what could've been going on doesn't mean you're automatically what was going on,'
'Thanks I needed that...' she rests her head into the couch so she's staring up at the roof. 'But how can you be so sure of that though.'
Because I was once her.
'It's just what I assume,' I shrug.
'I don't understand why you guys stopped being friends in the first place,' she laughs stiffly. 'You seem to really understand her.'
'Neither,' I carelessly smile.
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He was right.
He doesn't like me anymore. Well he did like me and then he just grew to resent himself for it. I guess the resentment manifested into anger towards Noah after a while but he's feelings pretty much faded. Or at least that's what the book says.
When reading the diary I also noticed that he spoke about me less and less until just disappeared from the conversation entirely. Reading about his daily thoughts where somewhat entertaining since I'm not sure how a man's thought process is exactly. Especially one who gets everything handed to him on a silver plate.
Except something that threw me off is that the moment Colton became aware of me and Noah, I suddenly became present again. It was weird too because he goes from forgetting about me to envying Noah over every slight detail even things that have nothing to do with me. He also begins to talk negetive lot about him even though he talks highly of him before he saw us. How can you envy someone over something you shame them for.
Closing the diary for the tenth time I've read it so many times. They're only three passages since he found out about me and Noah and all of them have been about me and him. I really want to read more about it so I can get more context but there's nothing to read. He just suddenly stopped using it.
Unless I text him and ask him straight up.
Laughing at the fact that I had even thought about that option, I pick up one of my other books when a peice of paper slips out. Reaching for it I look at it before feeling my mouth drop. It's my bio exam that I put between the pages but that's not what shocked me. What shocked me is the 'A' that's written and circled in the top left hand corner.
