TOO DEAD TO DIE

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙏𝙬𝙤: 𝘾𝙖𝙧 𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙨𝙚

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙏𝙬𝙤
𝙲𝚊𝚛 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚜𝚎

𝙅𝙖𝙘𝙠𝙡𝙮𝙣'𝙨

"Thank God!"ani ko ng Sawakas ay makalabas na ako ng syudad.

Instead of a 2 hours drive ay inabot ako ng 4 hours sa pag-drive, it is because most of the main roads are blocked. Maraming sasakyan ang nakaharang sa daan, mayroon ring ilang kalye ang di madaanan dahil sa mayroong mga natumbang poste ng kuryente dahil sa tumama ang ilang kotse rito, mayroon ring mga kalyeng puno ng zombie na siyang pinaka dapat kong iwasan. Kaya naman medyo natagalan ako sa paghahanap ng maaring madaanan na ligtas at walang harang na kalye. May times nga na kahit di pwedeng daanan ay pinilit ko ng madaanan dahil sa mga humahabol na grupo ng infected.

Di tulad ng sa syudad na puro gusali at kabahayan ang nasa paligid. Dito ay puro puno at taniman naman ang makikita, mayroon ring kabahayan akong nadadaanan pero malalayo ang mga ito sa isa't-isa. Pailan-ilan lang rin na infected ang makikita rito at wala masyadong nakaharang sa daan.

But my happiness didn't last long when I look in the rear-view mirror and saw a red pick-up truck is now speeding up behind me. It honks three times and it seems like they want me to pull over. But instead of slowing down, I drive the car much faster than before.

I know them, sila yung grupo ng mga armadong lalake na nakita ko noong isang araw. They're going around the city kidnapping or forcing survivors to come with them, especially women.

At first, they'll introduce themselves as the army that is assigned to rescue survivors and bring them to a safe military camp, pero sinong tanga ang maniniwala sakanila when in the first place ay mga pagmumukha pa lang nila ay di mo na mapagkakatiwalaan, they look more like a criminal with those tattoos all over their body, some of them even have piercing, and if you're familiar or if you look closely enough, you'll immediately notice that they're just wearing a fake military clothes. Not to mention that some of them are not fit enough to look like a soldier, ang ilan sa kanila ay sobrang payat at iba naman masyadong malaki ang alagang bilbil sa tyan.

They force survivors to come with them, and the worst thing is they kill whoever dares to fight against them or those people they think are useless just like children or those people with disabilities.

..........And that is what I witnessed the other day.......I want to help them, I want to beat those bastards and help those survivors to escape but I can't. As much as I want to help them, my body is not in a good condition to fight, I broke one of my arms and my left leg is also injured, there's also a lot of them, baka bago pa man ako makalapit sa kanila ay mapatay na nila ako.

I can fight, I have the ability and skills to fight, but I'm outnumbered, masyado silang marami. And if I use that thing, it will just put me in much more danger.

I always help other people as much as I could. I help a lot of people before even in a life and death situation. But for now, please allow me to be selfish for once, please allow me to think about myself and put myself first. I'm so sorry, but I would not allow myself to die until I meet my family again, until I make sure that they are fine and safe. Until then, please understand me.

With a heavy and sorry heart, I turn a blind eye with what I saw and hid myself more. I know it's bad, I know it's selfish, but you can't blame me, I'm also trying all my best to survive, I'm trying all my best to stay alive...........