Chapter 46

531 18 7
                                    

TW: self - starvation

July 10, 2016

I went for a walk at the night market where Sandro and I had been in May. That was the first and last time we went to this place as a couple.

Napadaan ako sa ice cream stall na pinagbilhan namin ni Sandro.

Wala na akong narinig kay Sandro simula nung araw na yun. I also secluded myself. Hindi ako nakipag usap kahit kanino. I did not attend school. Wala namang pasok until August.

Dumaan ang birthday ni mama meldy na hindi ako nakikipag usap kahit kanino. I'm hoping she won't be offended.

I was probably pale at this point. I'm unable to eat properly. I'm not even able to sleep.

Ilang araw na nga ba akong hindi makatulog? Hindi ko na kasi alam. I was pacing out, which is why I bumped into someone. "Sorry," Hindi ko na tiningnan kung sino yun.

"Nikki?" My gaze immediately went to the person who called me. "It's you," nilagpasan ko lang siya. I'm not interested in talking with anyone. "Hey,"

"Not now, Raiden."

"Nikki, I haven't seen you in a while. And I do not really know why you've been avoiding me. But you know I'm your friend. You can express it out." I pursed my lips. Ang tagal kong hindi kinausap ang mga kaibigan ko. Parang nawalan ako ng gana sa lahat. "Nikki,"

"I'm fine. I just don't want to talk about it," I replied. My heart's still aching. Nagpatuloy na ako sa paglalakad. I thought he'll leave me when I said that. He, on the other hand, did not. "I'm fine, Raiden." I said because he's following me. I took a seat on a bench.

"I know you don't." I closed my fist as I try to prevent myself from crying, again.

"Okay fine, I'm not okay." Nag-iinit na naman ang gilid ng mata ko. "I'm a miserable fool." He didn't react. "I've loved him for almost my entire life, and all it takes is one mistake for everything to fall apart."

"Does that mean that you and-"

"There's nothing else I could do. He's gone from me. Sandro and I had ended things." A heavy atmosphere's surrounding us.

"Nikki," he looked at me. May something sakanya. He acts as if he wants to say something but is unable to. "No, nevermind."

"Are you still friends with Caleb?" I asked.

"I never became friends with him."

"I'm not blind, Raids. I know he's your friend." He didn't reply. "There's no issue with that, that's your life."

"I'm sorry," I just smiled as I rose from my seat.

"It's good to see you here, Raids. I'll see you around." I gave him a hug. "I'll be going."

I can see in his eyes that he desperately wants to say something to me, but he is unable to do so. I'm not going to force him to say it.

"Yeah, I'll see you around, Nikki."

~•~

"Thank you," I got out of the cab after paying my fee. Hindi na ako nagdala ng kotse dahil hindi ko kaya mag drive.

I furrowed my eyebrows when I observed that the light inside my house is already on.

Did someone break in my house? I approached the door with care. Kinuha ko yung payong na malapit sa pinto.

I took my time opening it. Inihanda ko na yung payong para madepensahan ko yung sarili ko. "Who are-" The umbrella hangs in mid-air as I stare at the three persons inside my house.

Dance With Me // Sandro Marcos FanfictionWhere stories live. Discover now