ATOMIC

Chapter 32: Superman Wanted

“Lei tama na” sabi ni Jay. Inuga ng dalaga ulo niya sabay huminga ng malalim. “He was kissing my face, my neck, his hands…his hands on my boobs…hindi ako makasigaw…hindi ako makalaban. Shit hindi ako makalaban, hindi ako malaban Jay” bulong ni Leilani kaya inakbayan na siya ni Jay. “Enough Leilani” lambing niya. “Hinubaran niya ako, gustong gusto ko na sumigaw, hindi ko kaya.  He was touching me all over, I felt so helpless..at that moment…I needed someone to come save me”

“I never believed in superheroes pero that moment I badly needed one. I prayed and prayed kasi yun lang kaya ko gawin at that time.  He kept stopping because he kept talking to someone on the phone. There was one long pause, nakagalaw ako konti pero hinang hinang parin ako”

“He came back, he took photos of me…he started touching  me again, kissing me…hindi ako makasigaw, hindi ako makalaban pero nakayanan ko na siya sabunutan. When he was about to…” bulong ni Leilani naiyak na talaga siya kaya niyakap siya ni Jay.

“May bumusina, mura siya ng mura. I felt so thankful kasi di natuloy. He went out of the room, may narinig ako kausap siya. Nagtawanan sila then narinig ko na mauuna daw siya tapos susunod yung kausap niya. Naabot ko na bag ko. Nakaupo ako, nalabas ko ballpen ko”

“I told myself maybe after they rape me they will kill me…so unahan ko na sila. Desperate na ako, wala ako ibang maisip. I stabbed myself using my pen…I had to kasi di ko kaya, di ko kaya tiisin yung gagawin nila sa akin”  sabi ng dalaga sabay hagulgol.

“I stabbed myself repeatedly, he even came inside the room and saw me. He stood there frozen, I didn’t stop until I passed out. Next thing I knew I was at the hospital, nandon na mama at papa ko. I was too weak so I passed out again”

“Days after I got better pero iyak parin ako ng iyak. Si Yaya sumasabay, sa kanya ko nalaman na nahanap daw ako sa tabi ng kalye malapit sa ospital. Sabi sa police report case lang daw ng pagnanakaw tapos nanlaban daw siguro ako kaya sinaksak ako pero lucky daw ako kasi they missed my vital organs. Swerte daw kasi sa right side ako sinaksak kasi wala naman halos vital organs doon…I didn’t know that Jay…I wanted to end my life that moment but I guess I was lucky”

“I told my dad the truth. They had me rechecked kasi they found me clothed. They found the kiss marks…I felt relieved that I was not raped but my dad was so mad. We filed a case against Dennis pero it never prospered kasi lack of evidence and he had an alibi. Nasa Hong Kong siya daw…they are rich…they..ang mali ko walang nakakita sa kanya nung sinundo niya ako, hindi din ako nagpaalam kay Keng” sabi ni Leilani.

“Shhh tama na Lei” sabi ni Jay. “Kahit di natuloy, di ko maalis sa isipan ko yung nangyari. I lost my mind, someone who I trusted and was starting to like a bit did that to me so they had to get me checked in a center that can help women who had undergone the same experience”

“Lalo ako nadepress sa loob. One day I met the son of the owner, si Harry. Akala ko talaga mandidiri na ang mga tao sa akin if they knew what happened to me. Si Harry talked to me everyday, so I got out of that silent spell”

“He convinced his dad that I get discharged, mas maganda daw pag sa bahay nalang ako. He came to visit me everyday and helped me recover. Habang nasa bahay ako I watched all the collections of my dad…”