Do you still love me? {Kaneki}

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His heart pounded painfully, his cheeks were stained with fresh tears that never stopped flowing. His hands were knuckled as he rested them on the ground which was stained with food and drinks from his fridge. The taste of absolute filth still lingered in his mouth.

'What's happening to me?' He breathed unsteadily, his vision blurred from his tears so he blinked them away only to have them return to blur his sight once more. What was he suppose to do? What was he suppose to tell you? Or Hide? Was he supposed to run and go into hiding in an attempt to keep everyone around him safe? Or was he suppose to stay and let his newfound instincts take over? To let what he'd become take everything and everyone he loved away from him. To take you away.

Before he could come to his senses, the door lock clicked and the door swung open. You casually made your way in and shut the door behind you. "Kaneki-kun? Are you home? I got snacks!" His stomach grumbled; but not for the snacks, for your flesh. The moment you stepped in he could smell a delightful scent. And he craved for it deeply. What it was he craved, he wasn't even sure but something told him that it was, indeed, your flesh.

"Kaneki? Why's the food all scattered-" you asked innocently before getting the wind knocked out of you as your boyfriend slammed you violently against the wall. "Kaneki-kun?" You whimpered, your eyes shut from the impact and when you opened them again, you gasped from the sight. It was Kaneki but he had a ghoul's eye -- it had a black sclera with no pupil except for the glowing red circle in the middle.

You weren't scared. But you were worried; just days ago he had an accident and this was the result? What had happened to the sweet boy you loved, no -- love? "What happened to you?" You teared up as you placed your hand against his cheek gently, caressing the side of his face.

The hunger in his eyes never seemed to leave but he loosened his grip on you, his breathing slowed down, as well. He looked ashamed but still ferocious, as if not hesitant to kill you there and then if he pleased.

"(Y/N)-chan..." He whispered, nuzzling into your hand softly, his hands went from grabbing your shoulders to simply resting on them. "I-I'm sorry..." He cried, his sobs were broken and his eyes closed.

"It's okay, Kaneki-kun. Everything's okay." You smiled sadly, pulling him towards you and hugging him tightly. "Everything will be fine... A-are you hungry?" You asked quietly.

The room was quiet for a moment, except for a sniffle from your boyfriend every now and then. The silence wasn't broken until his crying stopped completely; but during then, you never stopped hugging the boy.

"Yes... (Y/N), I'm s-starving..." He whimpered painfully, as though trying to resist a temptation.

"If you want to, Kaneki-kun," you pushed him away gently, your eyes meeting his once more, "you can eat me..." Your gaze never left his to prove that you were serious.

Never in your many-year relationship did you ever see him so heartbroken.

"(Y/N)-chan..." He did not move, "do you still love me? Even like this?"

"Of course I do, silly," you cried, a tear rolled down your cheek, "I love you and I want you to live so eat me if you need to. I don't want you to die, Kaneki-kun..." You sobbed softly and kept you eyes shut, preparing yourself for death.

Death never came.

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