Sleeping Under The Moonlight ( Tommyinnt x Reader)

Chapter 2

Tw// Suicide attempt, death, Self Guilt, Blood, Death

I followed her up the stairs. I knew she just wanted to be alone. My Gut wouldn't let me leave her side. Even though we didn't talk, I had a feeling. I didn't want her to leave my sight.  

She closed her door. I stood there for a moment wondering if I should walk in. I went to turn around.

Yet my mind had other plans and I had opened the door. Even if I didn't know what was hidden behind these closed doors I would soon find out how tragic they would become.

Her bed was perfectly clean along with her room. To clean she would normally have some clothes on her floor. Her bed normally had been maid but never like this.  Her bathroom door was closed. I heard soft cries. My heart couldn't help but shatter.  I still was madly in love with this girl. My hand shook on the door as I turned it to the right.

" Y/n can I come in?" I asked loudly. Sadly no answer came. I wanted to turn around and leave. But I couldn't bring myself to move. I pushed the door open.  I ran over and dropped to my knees. There she laid almost lifeless. Blood everywhere. I held her for dear life. I couldn't help but cry. I should have never broken up with her.

"DREAM, Phil SOMEONE HELP PLEASE HELP" I screamed. I couldn't even tell if she heard me. " NO NO NO stay with me love you're gonna be okay. " I cried. I couldn't lose her. She was and is my everything. She's my Moon. I can't lose her. 

"Let me tell you something.  We could be in a field of the most famous people in the world and I would search for you. You made me feel loved. I haven't felt that in a long time. The amount of days I wanted to knock on your bedroom door to apologize I couldn't count. " did she really stop at my door. Why didn't she just knock I could have changes things.

"When I leave I don't want you to be sad or angry with yourself. I wasn't made to live in this cruel place. As beautiful as it is, everything has it's broken parts. You made me love something. Myself.  I will forever love you for that. I want you to live your life to the fullest. I will always travel by your side because I'll be in your heart. I believe in you love"  this could be the end. Why did I have to leave her.  I love her

"I love you" was all I had to say. I held onto her for dear life crying. It felt like an hour but it was only a minute. I could hear running up the stairs. I cried loudly. I didn't want to let her go. I couldn't. I just couldn't.

"Call 911" Dream yelled and Phil  rushed over.  "She's gone. She's gone. No no no no " was all I could repeat. My voice cracked from crying. " Tommy, it's okay. You have to let go" Phil put a hand on my shoulder.

"No no no" I didn't let go. "Sorry Tommy" arms wrapped around me and picked me up. It was  dream. I screamed and cried. I finally gave up. Was she really gone only time could tell. I sat for the rest of the day curled in a ball on my bed. I couldn't bring myself to eat or even move.

It hurt so much. It was all my fault. I shouldn't have made a big deal out of her staying at vidcon.  I can't help but hate myself.

What's the point of life if everything might never come back.  All I could do was slowly destroy myself until I found out if she was okay. Of course she is not okay. I have her blood and death on my hands.

It's all my fault.