Babysitting the Bad boy (na mala play boy)✓ •EDITING•

Chapter 57

Chapter 57

Cody PoV

Hinawakan ko ang microphono at ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata, I started singing while her image and our memories starts flashing in my mind. Hinayaan ko ang sariling ngumiti habang buong pusong ibinigay ang emosyon sa bawat kanta.

'Ipikit mo man ang iyong mata
'Di pa rin naman mag-iiba
Nabalutan ng poot ang puso mo
Tila malimit kang ngumiti ngayon'

Parang gusto kong sumuko nalang at umalis pero parang nakadikit sa sahig ang aking mga paa. Hinawakan kong maiigi ang microphono habang nanaig sa aking puso ang hapdi ng kanyang paglisan. Kasalanan ko ang nangyari pero ang hirap, di ka parin mawala sa isip at puso ko, hulog na hulog parin ako sayo.

'Sa bawat saglit, handang masaktan
Kahit 'di mo alam
Subukang muli at pagbigyan
Ang ating nakaraan
Kahit 'di mo na alam'

Maingat kong binuksan ang aking mata at ang liwanag ng ilaw sa bar ang siyang unang aking nasilayan. Pinlakpakan ako ng madla pero umalis na ako at binalewala ang komplimento nila. I ordered a glass of whiskey and walk towards the seat, I payed for my whiskey and take a sip of it.

Tatlong buwan na ang lumipas simula nung umalis siya. I searched for her everywhere, pumunta pa akong Cebu para matiyak kung kasama niya ang kanyang lola pero nalaman ko nalang na matagal ng patay ang lola ni holiday. I always kept thinking of her situation right now and I wanted to be there in every hardship battle she will face. I wanted to but I couldn't, she just wouldn't let me and I understand why.

Naramdaman kong may tumapik sa aking likod at nang tingnan ko kung sino, si west lang pala. I wasn't angry of him, I was just pissed.

"Every night you're always drinking and I always feel guilty and sorry. Dahil sakin naghiwalay kayo---"

I glared. "Sisihin mo pa ang sarili mo, ihahampas ko talaga sayo ang basong to."

"But aren't you mad because of my silly bet she left?"

Napakamot ako sa buhok papuntang batok at tinaponan siya ng tingin. "Hindi mo kasalanan, I still remember that day clear as a water dude and I know you were just joking and I didn't know nicole would believe that."

"Still I'm sorry. Kung alam ko lang na mahal mo na si holiday that time, I shouldn't have told nicole that you agreed to my bet which you didn't."

Tumango lamang ako sa kanya at uminom ulit ng whiskey. Nung araw na nagusap kami ni west sa telepono, nasa bar siya nun, handling our band's schedule at hindi niya alam na andon si nicole, hinahanap ako but what I don't really understand kung hinahanap niya ako sana nuon pa siya nagpakita but she started playing games.

Hindi ko narin alam kung ano na ang nangyari sa kanya pero wala akong pakealam kay nicole. All I wanted is to find holiday and proved to her why I love her to infinity. I wanted to show her the rest of my love and to court her for the rest of our life. Ganon ko siya kamahal at mamahalin ko pa siya. I still got the best of me that I wanted to show all of it only to her.

Umaalon ang aking paningin at aksidenting nakakabangga ng tao o bagay. Humingi ako ng pasensya at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad papunta sa parking lot pero halos mawalan ako ng balanse ngunit may umalakay sa akin. I tried to open my eyes to see who it was but my heart is beating so freaking loud and fast and only one person can whipped me this hard.

"Baby..."

I tried touching her cheeks but it was too late because darkness consume my body and I black out. I rolled the side of my bed but I woke up because of the sunrise waking my sense up.

Bumangon ako at kinusot ang aking mata, I clenched my jaw after feeling the hangover hitting me hard, pero halos hindi ko maramdaman ang sakit ng ulo dahil ikinagulat kong makitang wala akong saplot. I'm not wearing any shirt and especially my boxers! Fucked! Did I just had a one night stand with someone?

Fucking shit! Madali akong umalis sa kama at galit na galit sa sarili at sumulong papasok sa banyo. Tiningnan ko ang aking sariling repleksiyon sa salamin, I wanted to fucking punch myself so bad because of the stupidity that I've done! I don't deserve holiday! She's better without me, I don't deserve a woman who done nothing but good to me, she's way too perfect and I'm such a mess.

I'm wearing my grey sweater while I felt my whiskers. I've been in my condo for weeks and only the scattered bottles become my friend in my loneliest night. Kumuha ako ng isang boteng beer sa refrigerator at madali itong ininom ng matanggal ko ang bottle tip.

Naningkit ang aking mga mata ng marinig ang doorbell. I don't expect any guest today, Naglakad ako papunta sa pintoan upang buksan pero halos mapaluhod ako ng makita ko ulit siya, Her almond eyes, her plum lips, I wanted to hugged her so bad but something stopped me from doing it. And that's the memory of my unfaithfulness.

Pinagtaksilan ko siya at hindi niya deserve ang isang katulad ko. She doesn't deserve someone like me who have a fucked up life!

"Namiss kita---"

"Well I didn't." I said not looking at her.

"I-i don't understand what's going on?"

I clenched my jaw and look at her with my sharp eyes, fucked I hate myself for doing this but it's the best because she's too good to be with a monster like me.

"Anong hindi mo naintindihan? Iniwan mo na nga ako at babalik ka pa? What do you expect me to do? Hug you?" shit, baby I'm sorry. "I'm so tired of pushing myself towards you and if you love me? Then leave me alone."

I tried to close the door but she wouldn't agree, instead she push my chest so that she could enter fully inside my condo. Namumula ang mukha niya habang hinahawakan ang kuwelyo ko na para bang hindi niya nagustohan ang aking sinabi.

"I'm sorry kung pagod ka na cody wa'g naman sana ganito. Mahal na mahal kita at marami akong narealize at isa na dun yung pagmamahal mo sa akin. You're always a warrior, ready for any battle that'll throw in our relationship. Parati kang matatag kaya sana this time let me, let me be the one to protect our relationship."

Oh fuck! Her, telling these is making me regret what I've done all over again. Baby you deserve someone better even if I don't like seeing you in the arms of someone else but it's better that way.

"I don't need a woman like you, Get out of my fucked up life holiday ricijeo!"