Hey man I guess your last breakdown was May-June and you guessed you were alright until you remembered being in love with a 15 years older guy with commitment problems to women and 9-to-5 kind of schedules and it keeps you wide awake sometimes it keeps you wide eyed and mind clenching and feet wriggling and soul suffocated and etc etc - now I know this can be hard to swallow with your mind going places and nowhere at the same time but you need therapy my man you're like three people in one head and I can assure you five centimetres is not an ideal space for three housemates with short temper and nuclear behaviours and paralysing depression - this is beyond acceptable my man - this can't keep happening you can't afford it I can't handle it and you're dying one breakdown at a time this is bad man this is so fucking bad and it's costing you everything - get help cos you can't look after yourself - you're right about not getting married and having kids now - but the problem's way worse and you've got to look after yourself - so get help - get therapy - do whatever - just sort this shit out it all stinks
