Sweet Despair

Chapter 34

"AM, please? I knew this is gonna happen." pabulong niyang sinabe yung huli pero rinig ko naman.

Aish! Kainis naman kasi e. Bakit di niya pinigilan ate niya? Kailangan ba talaga niya ako pagselosin? It's not like nagseselos ako, okay? Naiinis lang ako sa kanila.

"AM, plea---"

"Jiro!" di niya natapos ang sasabihin niya kasi may tumawag sa kanya.

"Jiro, what are you doing here? Tawag ka ni--- Oh? Hello." sabe ng ate ni Jiro. Yes, siya ang tumawag kay Jiro.

"Ah... ate." napatingin naman yung ate ni Jiro sa kanya at saakin. She sighed.

"You told her already?" sabe nung ate niya sabay palo sa braso ni Jiro.

"Um, you must be Akira?" tanong niya saakin. I nodded.

"I'm Jiro's older sister. I'm Kim." sabe niya sabay abot ng kamay. I don't want to be rude kaya tinaggap ko yun at nakipag shake hands sa kanya.

"You must be mad at my brother." sabe niya sabay tingin sa kapatid niya. "Don't be, okay? Ako talaga ang nakaisip na pagselosin ka. Because I'm curious about you. I just want to see your reaction kung makita mo man ang kapatid ko na may kasamang iba."

Siguro alam niya ang nangyari samin ni Jiro noon. Jiro could've told her. Sa tingin ko nga mas close siya sa ate niya kesa sa kuya niya.

"I hope you understand, Akira. I'm just doing this to assure na my brother chose the right girl for him. I don't want my brother to get hurt." sabe niya. I nodded.

Pero kailangan ba talaga yun? Ako nga yung sinaktan niyan e.

*Knock* *knock*

Tumayo ako sa pagkakahiga sa kama at binuksan yung pinto.

"Ma? Do you need anything?"

"I just want to talk to you about the engagement." nagulat ako sa sinabe ni mama.

"Um, okay." sabe ko sabay talikod at naglakad papunta sa kama ko.

She closed the door and went straight to my bed. Umupo ako sa kama ko at ganun din ang ginawa niya.

"What about the engagement? You're calling it off?" hopeful kong tanong.

"No." nadismaya naman ako sa sagot niya.

"You're really gonna let me marry someone I don't love? And worst, he's Sully's boyfriend." inis kong sabe.

"Then who do you want to marry?" I was taken back by her question. Umiwas ko ng tingin. "I-I don't know. But you can't force me to marry someone I don't love." I heard her sighed.

"Akira, you should be honest with your feelings. That's the reason why I want you to marry, Rain. Because I want you to be honest with your feelings." naguluhan ako sa sinabe ni mama.

"W-What do you mean, mama?" takang tanong ko.

"Who do you love? Who does your heart calls for?" nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa tanong ni mama.

"I'll let you think of it. Once you have thought of it, come straight to us. And tell us what you really feel." pagkasabing pagkasabi ni mama nun tumayo siya kaagad at hinalikan ako sa ulo saka naglakad palabas.

Be honest with.... what I feel?
Am I indenial with my feelings? What does mama mean by that?

*Phone Rings*