Bed of Flames✅

CHAPTER 27

Chapter 27

"She's very beautiful and adorable. Oh baby, kamukhang kamukha mo si Mommy." my Mom giggled while looking at my newborn.

Bumukas ang pintuan ng silid na okupado namin. Lumabas ang Doktora na nagpaanak sa akin, may dala-dalang papel. She smiled when she saw us.

"Kindly fill up this information, Miss." she handed me the papers. "Put the baby's name. The complete name."

Kinuha ko ang itim na ballpen at pinagmasdan ang papel. Mom was carrying my baby while Dad and Kuya Ashton were sitting on the long chair a meter away from my bed. I hesitate to put the baby's name but eventually, I put it. I smiled.

"Astraea Lauren Hernandez," si Mommy. "Nice name, baby."

I stared at my baby. She was sleeping on my mother's hand. While watching her sleep, my heart hurts. Hindi ko alam na ang sobrang kasiyahan ay nakasasakit sa puso. Parang pinipiga.

Sobrang pinagsisihan ko kung bakit ko naisip na magpa-abort. This poor little one doesn't deserve it. No one deserves it. Everyone deserves to live and see this beautiful world.

Kaya kapag naiisip ko ang mga inang nagpalaglag sa kanilang mga anak... nagsisisi rin kaya sila? Nakokonsensya? We are all different. Siguro may rason sila kung bakit nila ginawa iyon.

Pero sapat ba ang rason nila para kumitil ng isang inosenteng buhay? There must be a deep reason for them to have their kids killed. Financial? Maybe... Unintentional? Perhaps.

Wala akong alam. Dahil iba naman kami ng pananaw sa buhay. Their perspectives are theirs, mine is mine. I was naive and scared when I thought about having abortion. My mind was irrational. And I am so thankful to my family who's there for me every time.  If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be able to see this beautiful baby on my hold.

One week of staying in the Hospital, finally, I've been discharged. They throw a welcome party for my baby when I get home. I was surprised when I saw Lola there. That was the very best day of my life... we were complete.

Pero pagkatapos ng araw na iyon, bumalik sa normal ang lahat. Umaalis si Kuya Ashton para sa lumalago niyang negosyo, mga semento at iba pang mga muwebles at kagamitan sa bahay. Madalas naman siyang bumibisita sa amin.

Bumalik na rin sa Pilipinas ang mga magulang ko kasama si Lola. I was left in the house with my baby Asren and so many guards and maids. Being a mother is the best days of my life, however, I need to bear with my daughter's cries and longing.

Actually, week of being a mother sucks... really. I need to wipe her poops and urines, gross. Sometimes, I let Mary do it. I do the breastfeeding and every midnight I wake up for its freaking loud cry.

"Shh... Baby, don't cry." napangiwi ako nang lalo pang lumakas ang iyak nito. "Shh..."

Kinarga ko ito at mahinang sinayaw. It's already past midnight and this monster's cry woke me up. It's been three consecutive nights when I'm still wide awake at this hour. I need to bear with this.

"Shh... What do you want?" malambing kong sabi. "You want Mama's milk?"

Kinalas ko ang strap ng aking bra para mabigyan ng daan ang aking dibdib. My nipples flew out. Asren sipped on it and her cry lowered. I gasped. I never thought being a parent could be this hard.

I stared at my daughter. However, it looks so satisfying to see her this way. My tears fell. I am sorry if I can't give you a complete family you deserve. But I'll do everything to fulfill the lacking part of it. I won't make you feel lacked. I love you very much, baby.