Fighting For You (Book 2)

Everything is Rosey

Sighing, I ran my hand through my hair. "I don't know what to tell you, man. I can't explain why it is she looks so much like Lilly, and I definitely can't explain my strange connection to her. However, I'm going to find out one way or the other what it all means. My gut feeling is telling me that she's connected to Lilly somehow."

Mik swore, "I see now why you asked me to ask her brothers if she's a twin. I thought that you were just being the paranoid f**k that you are, but I guess your suspicions might be right."

I frowned at him. "You're an ass."

He smiled at me, "I'm just speaking the truth, brother. Ever since Lilly died, you've been seeing her ghost everywhere, even on the face of living people. So, you did not expect me to believe you when you said that this FBI chick looked like her, did you?"

I didn't blame him. My behaviour has been a little eccentric over the years, which has caused me to do some weird shit. However, seeing the ghost of my wife is what kept me alive for all those years.

"There's so much about her that reminds me of Red. She does and says things that make me forget for a minute that she isn't my wife. When I'm with her it's like I'm with Lilly. I just can't explain it. I know it's f**ked up and I should just walk away from her, but something is telling me that I'd regret it if I did."

Mik looked at me like I'd finally lost the plot. He rolled his eyes and looked at the heavens, sighed then looked back at me.

"Relationship is not a multiple-choice question, it's not just a simple task of choosing between A or B. It's more complex than that, she can't be Lilly's stand in just because you need to fill the void that Lilly's death left."

He was starting to piss me off because I knew that he was right. However, as much sense as he was making, my heart refused to listen to him.

"No one can be Red's stand-in."

No one can come close to what I felt for Lilly, but I couldn't deny that being with Lacey made me feel less lonely. I still missed my wife, but when I'm with Lacey that void doesn't seem that deep, or dark.

"You're playing a dangerous game, Killian. F**k, I'm glad that you're finding your happiness again. However, the way you're finding it is unhealthy. You're not moving on from Lilly. You're keeping her alive in the body of another woman. You claim to have a connection with her, but it's just one you've fabricated because of her resemblance to Lilly. Can you honestly tell me that you would have given her the time of day if she had looked any different?"

I thought about what he said, and I knew that once again, he was right. If she hadn't looked so much like Red, I wouldn't have given her a second glance. Maybe I was fooling myself into believing that the connection I felt to her was real. However, I still believed that she was somehow related to Red.

"You might be right, and I might be projecting my feeling unto her, but at this moment, I'm too far gone to care."

I was in way over my head, and I didn't care. Watching as she risked her job and possibly her life for me earlier, was all I needed to solidify what I already knew deep in my heart. I was going to keep her. Come hell or high water, she was going to be mine.

Mik shook his head, "You're a f**king lost cause. I don't even know why I even try to f**king reason with you?"

I looked at him in amusement as he once again looked to God for help, then he ran his hand through his hair in frustration.

"One day, you're going to get us all f**king killed."

He didn't wait for me to reply to him. He turned and walked away, mumbling to himself about spending more time with his family before I send him to his death.