Addicted to doctor forth ✔

48.way back to each other

Seeing beam trying hard not to cry and fighting to stop those tears, forth gives in, he give up on forcing beam, he bent down to beam head he hugs beam hips "...don't be guilty beam, you did not do anything,"

Whenever forth says that beam feels light weighted and his soul is feat free from guilty feeling his hips feel warm with forth arms around him he rest his cheek on forth broad shoulder.

"...it's been a week baby, let's talk..." he whines into beam neck he feels like crying he hugs him closer smelling beam fair neck while beam smells into forth honey neck

All the one week forth gives time for beam in the end he is only having a separation and feeling distance, for their restless soul he hurt beam so he kept himself away from beam what if his actions trigger or do something to beam, he did not even at least have one glass of alcohol, he is not an alcoholic addict but last week he did drink and hurt beam that hurts forth, he did hurt beam, so he stops drinking the glasses, he knew beam will take chances and he might hurt beam again, so he stops drinking.

"...chotu, I am not drinking, I am stressed too I need kisses and hugs from my...... chotabeam"

He is surprised, why! forth only drinks few glasses only the times of his mother anniversary he drank a lot otherwise he won't drink too much but forth stops drinking why? For him! Yet he did not hug him back, he don't want forth to stop his glasses which forth will have whenever he is stressed he knew being a surgeon how stressful it's for forth so a glass or two is what forth needed.

how many ways forth tries beam is not coming his way, he is staying where the time has stopped he is not letting forth to come to him and takes his pain away, it's been a week enough of being reluctant and adamant

He lets go of beam he stares down to beam eyes which are looking down, "okay, then...I am going home,"

He is hoping beam will ask him to sleep tonight but seems like beam don't want him to stay there, only time can heal beam heart, he strokes few hair strands "have dinner, I will leave,"

Forth doubt beam would skip dinner, so he thought to stay until he was done with dinner, he gets beam into his arms beam sticks to him like a cola bear resting his chin on forth shoulder and deeply staring into space

"your holding onto me now, why afraid that you will fell down,"

he teased expecting to receive a hit or an yell but nothing only silence, he gently drops him to chair, the food is served hot only for him, forth is seeking if beam would ask him to eat too, all these days they were silent at the dining table eating their food, today he did not serve food for him, but beam is not asking him, this is hurting him, his faces slips into smile beam is having dinner he can see the hunger in the way beam is having his food

"oiee...this is too cruel," forth snipes beam does not respond, he closed his eyes, its okay, let him be! He cannot force himself on beam, beam cannot run away from him, if he is going to runaway he would do the day where he asked beam 'let's go home' he can sense beam trying something might be like testing forth patience level to make him leave beam. Might be beam giving a chance to forth to leave him and making him learn that forth can live without beam! So beam is proving him beam is not worth for forth to hang on!

'Are they back again back to these terms' forth can only sigh it's his mistake he said all those words doubling beam guilty feelings he even called him all those words, now he have to try all everything from the start and pull beam into him, he have to prove beam no matter what he is the best for forth, beam is his happiness

Beam secretly looks to forth hand there is no patch his hand got healed last week it was pretty much swollen he kissed and applied the patch for forth