Addicted to doctor forth ✔

28.Feeling sorry

lam comes back, patting beam shoulder "try to sleep," lam goes and gets a blanket he helps beam to sleep on couch and covers him with blanket which beam remember he used the same blanket in the afternoon when forth sleeping in his lap he is tearing up again remembering everything he spoiled everything with his own hands, he deserve this hate he can sense everyone hating him now and no one can understand him he is trembling feeling embarrassed and shy and hurt, still remembering the scene of David slapping forth was shaking him up he looks to the closed door of forth bedroom and tears up again murmuring repeated sorries when his goal was to chase forth away from his life then why he is hurting now, after all he succeeded in achieving but its hurting him more now he clenching his hoodie close to his chest and he tugs in his pant pocket getting the box out, which he get it when he excused for rest room

he sits up holding the box he keeps staring to blurred yellow diamond stud he gets a teary smile he sits up staring to the ring and gets the ring out and he finds a small letter in the box. It's a folded paper like a small note

"to beam,

I am searching for a good gift but I cannot find any, hope you will like this yellow diamond, I am giving a diamond to my diamond +55, please be happy always, its says that diamonds are pure and light I felt that represents my beam, your my love and pledge I am committed to you beam, whenever your wears this diamond that represents you're mine

Yours waiting love,

I am someone who loves a person who does not love me back, I am waiting for you beam, please accept me..."

Holding the small note close to his chest he keeps sobbing he is hugging his knees and held his chin on top of his hands he is letting the tear fall, forth do love him even if he knew beam is sick, beam mother left him when he was sick he is trembling how forth accepts him when his own mother did not!

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It was in the morning, beam woke up feeling headache and he wants to have some coffee he remember forth getting him coffee on a warm morning, he smiles in a sad way and looks to room door which is still closed

He gets up to mix coffee for them he walks to lam who is working in the storeroom "p'lam do you want coffee,"

"I already had, nami mixed coffee for all of us, forth and nami went on a walk, can you help me to arrange store room"

Beam felt bitter he touched his pant pocket where he pocketed the small ear drop. he wants to know who is nami? Lam answers says nami must have mixed coffee for forth too, and he find that even more bitter and now lam is arranging the storeroom for what? is the new guest going to stay here, he think it's not right to call her guest, she must be a family member she seems very close to the family

Lam ask beam "move these boxes out," he says and walks out from the room

Beam steps in the room, again sneezing and sneezing he had dust allergy he cannot stand the dust yet he is going to help, he don't want to be a free lodger in the house, he picking up the big boxes and bringing them out, he is careful to see if there any cockroaches he is tearing up already, its his adverse effect of the major surgery he had, his headache is worsening, he already moved five boxes out and lam was back with new boxes and places them down "fill all the scattered books into the box,"

Beam nod while lam taking away the other boxes, he started collecting the books and putting them in the box he is packing each box in a neat way so that books won't get spoiled, he hears a girl chuckles it must be nami, that means forth return back form walking, he steps out from the storeroom for only to see nami and forth sitting side by side having a morning talk which remind him of the morning were forth taking rest in his lap and the morning where he and forth cuddled in the morning sunshine warm and enjoyed watching the sunshine