Babysitting the Bad boy (na mala play boy)✓ •EDITING•

Chapter 33

Tumulo ang luha ko at pinigilan ang humikbi. Pinunasan ang luha at tumalikod upang makaalis ng magsalita si ver.

"Where are you going?"

"Magpapahangin lang sana, naiingayan kasi ako..." sagot ko na hindi siya hinaharap.

"Ouh...sige..."

Mabilis akong naglakad paalis sa lugar nayon. I am walking 'round nowhere, but I do remember this road. Ito yung lugar kung saan nangyari ang pinaka magandang pangyayari sa tanan buhay ko. I was trying not to break down but I failed.

Napaupo ako sa lupa at umiyak hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito, Iniwan ko nga siya tapos iiyak-iyak ako? I should expect this but He's confusing my decision!

Sometimes he makes me laugh, makes me blush and He makes me flutter! but I ended up crying which is very confusing. Pinili ko 'to kaya paniningdigan ko, pero mahirap panindigan ang desisyon na hindi naman ako binigyan ng choice!

Mas lalo pang umagos ang aking luha. Tumayo ako at inayos ang sarili. Tiningnan ang paligid hanggang huminto sa isang puno sa hindi kalayuan.

I don't know why but my feet moves on its own. Humikbi ako at napahawak sa puno. Ang maalaala ang pinagsamahan namin dito sa lugar nato parang sinaksak ako ng paulit-ulit.

"Look at this tree 'Standing proud and tall. Kahit anong baha o, unos sa buhay ay kaya niyang lagpasan." I chuckle. I can't believe I am talking to myself now.

"But when you cut a tree, it won't grow back and it'll never stop the flood."

Napasinghap ako ng malalim at nanlaki ang mata, huminahon at pinigilan ang umiyak, inayos ang sarili bago siya harapin.

Tapos na ba sila?

"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" I ask cold enough to make him glare.

"Ang tanong anong ginagawa mo dito? At bakit ka umiiyak?"

Napakagat ako sa labi at umiwas sakanyang tingin. Hindi ako makatingin sakanya ng diretsahan, Just staring at him stop my lungs from working.

"Just stop..." inipon ko lahat ng lakas ko at tumingin sakanya. "Let's stop... 'I don't want to be your friend anymore---"

"Yeah. Let's stop because I'm fvcking tired of hiding holiday!" I shut my eyes. "I'm done hiding this pain! Andito pa yung sakit na iniwan mo, pero alam mo ba kung anong ginawa ko? Nagpakatanga ako at pumayag maging pvtanginang kaybigan mo para lang mapalapit sayo at baka sabihin mo sakin ang rason kung bakit mo ako iniwan!"

"A-aalis na ako---" pinigilan at hinawakan ang aking siko. At lumipat sa pagkakahawak ng aking kamay.

"Tell me why are you always running away?"

Please don't make me regret my decision. I am just protecting you! Marahas akong kumawala sakanyang pagkakahawak at itinulak siya.

Please, just go I don't wanna hurt you!

"Let's be honest---"

"Honest!? why Cody? naging honest ka ba sa akin!? Why didn't you tell me about what happen to nicole? why didn't you tell me about your case from years ago!?" I shouted. Siguro oras na nga upang magkalinawanagan kami.

"W-who told you that---"

"It doesn't matter who told me! Why didn't you tell me? Wala ka bang tiwala sa akin?"

"No, it's not like that. I was about to tell you but you acted so strange. You were always angry at me and I am always thinking if I did something wrong to make you act that way! I want to understand because I love you holiday."

Natulala ako sa nalaman. What...what did he say? He... he love me? Oh my god! Please control you're emotion holiday! You need to get out!

"C-cody..." It was almost sounds like a whisper than a plea. Am I begging him to leave me alone or to kiss me?

"Akala ko wala nang mas sasakit pa sa mga sinabi mo sa akin, 'But fvcked! Seeing you with another man laughing and enjoying each other's company shattered my fvcking ego and heart."

What? Anong ibig niyang sabihin? Biglang sumagi sa aking isipan ang alaala nung lumabas kami ni kuya. So he saw me with my brother? I crouch to matches our height.

"It was my brother, cody."

"W-what...but---Hah!" he look relieved.

Mapakla akong ngumiti at tiningnan siya. Gusto kong sabihin na mahal din kita...

"But please don't love me anymore. Go back to Nicole, She is after all you're first love---"

"She was my first love but you're my true love."

Shet na malutong! Cody wa'g ganito! Nahihirapan ako! This burning feeling of wanting to hugged you. This feeling of wanting to claim again you're forbidden lips...

Maybe it's time. I need to tell him the truth.

"I'm getting married... 'So stop loving me."